Going home just does not have a meaning now..I was so reluncant to leave the class todae. Seeing yining dey all actually staying back is rather gd news le, even though it for playing cards. I just feel heaven is playing some kind of sick joke on me-- why do u make me both happy and sad at the same times? when im happy, something will make me sad and vice versa. Im losing control soon its onli a matter of time..things have changed so rapidly and im still dwelling in the past unable to catch up with now.. Boring must be the word now,no the word is meaningless. All i do is play ps2 den seriously i have no more activities. i do not noe wad to do, i have no motivation im sick of myself and everything ard. Why mus things come to this?! at this crucial moment i noe im screwed and i dun realli care if i flunked my o lvls.. dat my feeling im feel so gutted and stupid i dun wan to study animore maybe i shud just punch someone and get expelled..my future is already SCREWed.. Life is screwed now i realise it how foolish of me.. I wish i was just a cold person who cant feel any emotions den i wud have been content. I do admire Aston sometimes, he always seem so happy n carefree..he has no burdens.. I might say sth hurtful -wad r frens for when all they do is hurt you?**** them.. all i wan is a simple happiness and damn this world im sick of it aniwhere..I just wish i cud die...i can see who is my true frens i have eyes.. i noe ppl who pulls mi out of sadness and stand by me ALWAYS.. the e5 ppl r always a joy to be with they make me smile with their realli crude jokes.. jimmy u r a great person u r funni - u r a gd fren. Jon- thank you for standing by me all this while i mus have scared you silly with all those angry antics sorry>_>! Yi ning-u r a great neighbour in class keep it upxD Fawwaz-Even though you dun say much things , i noe we shared a great unspoken bond. Shaphan- You are great to have ard. Dez- hey stop poking me in history! lolx jus joking i think we became gd frens thru the oral practices im realli glad. Vincent-Aiyoh next time hor dun always like call my name and gt nth to say lei... Like Ah BEN! den u say nth=.=" Aniway ur greatxD Wei xiang-stop acting cute and keep up with the magic tricks hahahaLOL!Ur an okay person actually..lemme see ahah Gordon- ur r one hell of a fantastic person i admire yr frankness and u r a great pal too! WM and darryl- lolx u guys r esp funni with jin hui (sp?) made me happy during historylolx! Zheng xiang- okiex erm just dun act dat wierd okie? u r a nice person. CH- aiyah u lazy le lah make some more jokes lei hor.. aniwae u r gd too~ Let see who i miss out.. oh yah Ben chng! LOLx! we r in the same class for 4 years le i mus say it mus be fate(imitates jasbir) Destiny wadeva...=.=" I still rmb the great times of YGO( u noe wads dat rite?^) and the maple times with ming kwan n other members of the local community. Best pals?hell yeh! Eric and bryan- i always have the impression u two r brothers ROFL! Aniwae thx for the oral practice and encouraging me. also yr card tricks r awesome! On par with pros! Jiayou! The gals are also nice ppl..but i wun go into details cuz...i just .....theres som..nvm... I just dun wish to say it.. sorry... It will make me veri upset and i have at least promise myself to continue this screwed life happy and dun think of sad things animore.. I shud have never entered myself into emotional whirlwind.. i shud have stayed in my dreams where everything is real and nice..opposite the screwed and ****ed up world.. I dun use vulgarities on the net but now i just wanted to be happy and free from restraints.. I just wan to be trapped on an island far awae looking at the beautiful oceans and enjoying the cool ocean breeze.. perharps things wud be better..

Im sorry if i didnt do my part as a fren.. forgive me and pls pls dun leave me alone now when im in dire need...thanks..

I wish heaven wud giv me a reason to cry...

I wish i have a time machine...to go back to past times to be happy ever...

Sorry just thought of you guys! Thanks to all my maple buddies my whole family of meis and didis. And my best buddy DivineAngel who kept me happy n encouraged me thur this sad days. Also my gal maple frens Whitelighter and Snowie thx for sharing so much joy with me Esp you white! Thanks!