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Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I'm still waiting for you..
U know in my dreams this has never happened..it will never i still find it hard to believe that everything have come upside down..I thought well we could carry on like this happy and great frens.. Why has things turn so sour? I cant even talk to you now, i dun even have the courage to tag on your board.. there are a million questions i wish i cud ask but i know i wud not find answers.. i even wondered if you even cared to read everything i said..den i realise it. I noe why i felt this way, sad heartbroken and really feel sucidal.. it was becuz of how i feel towards this relationship.. I cant afford to lose it..i dun wan to lose anything animore..i felt so regretful over my primany school days where i jus let everything go without a struggle..you noe how hurting it feels for me now to see our friendship slowly rotting away? its not funny or enjoyable..all those days all those memories i hold dear to, i want to return to the past, that this matter have never exsisted!that we wud still be happy where we could chat and have fun everything, its gone its really gone... Im so sad so desperate to see those times return that i do all kinds of foolish things..i just hope you wud understand and forgive me..
I just hope you wud just open up to me.. i wish i cud do something but i feel so helpless.im afraid if i approached you, u might get pissed off(Dat day after chem prac u gave me a look full of hatred and stuff , i might have misinterpreted it but im a sensitive person i can feel it..) Or i wud just get totally ignored. or you wud be disinterested with the conversation.. Wadeva way it will feel awkward i doubt we cud get anything done if so..
The only way..there is only 1 way..Forget this matter like it never happened..and start afresh our friendship i cant bear to see it disintegrate..(or we could just laugh it all at my stupidity and be happy buddies again:)] i dun wan to cry animore i wan to be happy too... i wish you wud happy too and rmb wad i wud used to do everydae after school?Bye Dear^_^ I wish you a safe trip and a good day forward!( wish i cud still do that...)
(If you can, pls tag under a random name okie? at least lemme noe ur reading it.. i really wish we cud return to be frens...)
now you notice i talk a lot!