its hazy down here and its doing wonders on my head... it has jus freaking hit 150 which is obviously not healthy..i cant study like that my head is like there a drill in it ouch.. well i think i might have late movie fest later..ya im preparing for it by having an afternoon nap.. yeh watching movie and studying during midnight..cool..a few weeks left ya and everything is soon coming to an end.. dat day before chem prac, yining chng shaphan and jimmy we were talking abt the 1st day in sec 3..brings back memories..Haha there is arthur lee and his craps lolx..hes not dat bad as a form teacher.. i dun noe why everyone hated him heisnt dat bad except dat hes not good at teaching=.=

Well it doesnt seems dat ur reading the blog..how ironic right? I..still keep myself going by thinking of you and the the dreamy future dat we might have..I pretend you were there still..supporting me and chatting and stuff..Ya i noe its all just an illusion but at least it kept me happy and determined..I jus hope dat the illusion will last thru the months.. Perharps..you be happier like this..even if i suffer..i dun really know.. i cant made up my mind..Im all alone now..like in the past..i can cope..i will..sometimes i wish the frens around me can share my burden..but i dun trust you all..except for jon i cant really relate anything to you guys. You guys sure help by talking abt relationships or the happy possibilites you will have..ya sure great wonders to all you laughing and happy..just dat you never thought of my feelings ..so perfect.. i have been hurt too much..i have grown steadily numb..dats why this days i treat all of you like crap becuz i think you guys treat me like crap too..Maybe im too selfish..self centered.but for god sake! for once lemme direct my own path! i dun wan any bloody interference..im tired of ppl showing me the way ..im sick of it..maybe time will heal..perharps i shud jus release my hatred my pain..It jus dat..no one is there...maybe i will be all alone for the rest of my life...

All i want is your care and concern ..dats really all i ask for..