While in my room thinking and also with the help of jon, i think i might have really been enlightened... I jus feel a new calm descending over me. Even though i really hate how things have turn out, i guess i have to accept it..Life will always be unfair i learn. And no matter how hard i try, it will be tilted. Maybe this is what they call fate. Maybe i shud start appreciating how god given me rejoiceful things in midst of my depression. Maybe i shud stop blaming god. Even though i dun believe in religions, i tend to view the hander of my so called destiny as god. Sometimes you have to let go... Sometimes things are never a fairy tale ending, but 1 tragic end. To forget you might want, but i'll tell you some things are never to be forgotten. Time flows like a river, sure and true only in 1 direction and this is where i shud go. 10 years down the road, you might get married and please invite me to yr wedding dinner and i invite you to mine. 10 years of time will never heal but it would no doubt patch the wound. Rmb all that has pass us by-sadness,joy. All of them because that is what made us one in the past. even in holiday destinations we are so far yet so near. Our set off dates a 1 day difference. Maybe this is destiny--Thank god for letting us be together for once and thank you for everything you done..you let me feel what love once again..Goodbye and i hope we will meet again one day and look into each other's eyes and call me your friend.