I really feel stupid,dumb..Its like i lost sight of what i really want to do.. I just feel this real empty void within..im trying too hard to be someone im not sure of but then again, i dun really know myself.. It feels as if im a doppelganger, destined to mimic someone for i have no true soul to call my own.. Somehow, i hate this world..Screwed up and really just F***ing dumb.. People courting their own doom by destroying the environment.. I just really wish they can all be eliminated along with me so i dun have to carry on a zombie-like existence here.. Why wun everyone just make peace?! Is there really benefits to fighting a war? For me there can only be one outcome-Sorrow. So Screw the terrorists, screw the N.Koreans screw everyone who wants to kill a innocent person. Why shud i even care when i cant even cope with myself? Why wun everyone understand?! I really really need someone who can care and listen to me.. I really ned such a person. But its as if no one gives a F***. What did i do to ever deserve this treatment? All i really want is everyone to be happy..even at the expense of my own..Why?WHY!!!? Does no one truely understand me??! I can trust no one..on one at all..Politics are fickle, it changes with time..so are friends..you never know when they are going to stab you in the back..Is there really no end? Is this truely retribution for all my care and concern?! I wish i was a terrible villian.. One who muster deeds worth the condemnation to hell..One who fights against the world just so he is truely loyal to himself and not too anyone..

Im not longer sure i m of this world..maybe one day i be whisked off to somewhere safe and happy.. with ppl who are kind and helpful.. Til den reality is but a blur..nth is ever what it seems