Okie luckily nothing unfortunate happened on Friday:)
Well there was that Mercy Relief thingy during Mass Civics
which showed some rather gruesome pictures
( I find it funny when in GTA, i burnt people into a black crisp with a flamethrower
but when i was saw a real one, i was like totally grossed out...T.T).

There was Homecoming yst in my old school which is Xinmin btw..
Was supposed to meet with Fawwaz and jimmy but ended up i came too early lols..
My ear starting to rot le..cant really hear what others are saying at times haha
so misheard the time lor..
Was like thinking what to wear there so i started to mix stuff up den viola!
I found a really nice combination!
I wore a black jacket den my white shirt over it with black pants. UBER coolness!!^_^
Den i found out that if i actually wore that,
i would fried by the afternoon sun and become black..oh oops i mean darker.
So just wore that shirt instead lor.

Luckily for me, i saw Ah Chng looking all confused in his VJ uniform outside the school gate.
Haha at least found companion le!
Den ironically even more ppl come all of a sudden with wei xun pulling a backstab on me!
Ouch hes still as strong as ever lor!
Den saw Yong leong and found out something really amazing!
He studying in NYP lols! Like next door only haha...
Looks like i can visit him everyday le!

Den Fawwaz came and we all just explored the school and talk thrash as usual:)
Den i saw my good buddies Perry and Irysad.
Haha sry for pointing a middle finger for greetings cus
i really tot u were pointing too and it wud be friendly to return it!
Talk thrash as usual and abt things in AJ.
( Ahem cannot say anything or it will hurt ppl feelings de!!!)
Saw Arthur Lim and said hi and stuff.
And den saw OMG Mdm Chua! lols Shes so funny still.
She talk back is the best one i cant really argue with such a master lor!

The whole place still look the same though. Too bad Low Ai Nar wasnt there..
I haven thank her for the oral practice yet...
Seeing that it is all boring and stuff, I went jamming with Perry and Co.

Well its fun lor!
We went to this soundproof room and there was drums and electric guitars all around!
Haha ya i noe i very sua ku lar hor...So excited seeing electric guitar!
Took one and pretended to play and oh my, its so much heavier than my classical guitarO.O!!! But i was really impressed with Perry and Co.
They can play like a band and obviously 1000x better den Eclipse!xDD
And perry voice is amazing. His jia ying damn qiang!
Hm im gonna train my guitar skill now le den i can join them and jam every week! Yippee!

Den they all went back to school while i went home..kinda burned out le...

There was supposed to be some Class reunion dinner thingy..
but decided against it after finding out most of my good buddies are not going...
Sorry my other frens..its not really you are not my good buddies
but i think i really feel closer to them dats all...paiseh Jonathan and fawwaz>.<

Though i have to admit it was more because of her...I just feel strange.
I really wanted to see her but when the time comes, i just want to avoid her...
Im so confused...I dun noe why..Do i still hate her?
Or maybe it will just be an awkward experience? Do i actually still like her?
I think im totally screwed up...I really fear going beyond friendship ...
Im dun really want to have a relationship anymore suddenly..
im scared that the same incident wud happen again...
Sometimes, i want to give up but i still really like her ma...
I dun noe when will the day ever come in which i have the courage to speak to her...
I can't really decipher my feelings to her now...
Do i just think of her as a mere fren or is it something more?
Thank god i didnt see her on homecoming becuz i wud not know what to do...
Im Really Really scared ... i can't even fite for my ownself...Is it all too late?...
I think from now on, i just have to rmb the promises between us and that may truly be enough... Sometimes i get all jealous looking at couples...
i really wish i cud experience that mutual love...
Sometimes, its horrible..sometimes i really need a shoulder to cry on whenever i think of her...

O my dear frens...pls tell me what to do...im lost...
And if you ever catch me crying, dun mind lending me a shoulder okie? Thx...