Man am i glad to have my internet up and working again!
For 2 annoying weeks, my modem gave up on me and it was a a painful 2 weeks..
Looks like i can't realli live without it..:)
Im glad i can have you back sweetie
Now i can finally blog lar.

Okie im gonna continue from the bottom-its different text colour hee~

How ironic that the past 2 weeks is filled with the most events that can be blogged about..
Jeez ..Finally i can get it all out of my chest!
The first incident was the fight between me and my brother.
Nothing glamorous here but i feel i need to say something lar.
I just feel he is a bastard through and all
He's kinda spoiled by my mum
So he has grown quite tyrannical
Can't he just share his bloody umd disc with me?!
I always share everything with him(okie most of them)
I had to like sacrifice my clothes my shoes my everything just to let him get all the newest stuff
Damn all i get are left-overs
He doesn't even appreciate what i done
Jesus are we even from the same mother?
He is just plain insensitive and selfish
We are polar opposites lar..
The fight was quite bad though
I got pretty pissed off at his non nonchalant attitude
And he was shouting all those lame and unneeded comments
So i just taunted him until he threw the 1st punch
Ouch! my arm kinda dislocated by catching that punch
It hurts like crap for the next couple of days
But he didnt get scot free either
He sprained his ankle
WHAHAHA
Okie i shudn't be laughing but still..
He DESERVED IT!:))
Wadever he makes my blood boil
We are still at cold war
There is no way im gonna melt the ice
xD

Talking about my brother
I just happen to unearth something quite unexpected
i didn't know that the computer actually records all your msn conversations in a folder
So i was like browsing through
and i saw a record of blog gal
I knew that for that month, i didnt even chat with her
And guess what..my bro was chatting with her
Just some trival stuff chatted but still..
At least i knew for certain that she tried to tuition my bro last year
while i was like on a hate blog gal campaign
For that i am immensely thankful to her
But i don't think i ever get a chance anymore..
It has already passed me by..:((

Talking about blog gal(See how all these things link up! hahaha!) ^_^
I have quite a nice (but short) dream of her..
Due to the fact i was playing Metal gear Acid before i went to bed
I dreamnt that me and her was fighting terrorists
She cover fire for me..while like saying"I got your back!"
How sweet..How surreal..wish it was actually true...
Den i kinda transit into another dream.
And here the really scary part.
Jose was like beside me
And i was telling her about my dream of blog gal and me
I mean a dream in a dream!
Holy!
And she told me something really interesting
"At least your are spiritually together though you may be apart physically"..
Hm..how sweet too..
My dreams shud always stay so nice..
I woke up crying ...:(

Okie something that has no more links to wadeva that is above
Friday was happily pon by yours truly
Apparently the mass pon didnt occur..which is kind of disappointing
I went back to Xinmin and met up with my classmates
Which is the whole upsetting part..
Not only did i felt miserable, i felt heart broken too.
Being the class chairman of the class
I felt responsible for the whole disunity thing of the class..
I failed in my job..
Too entrenched in love..
Too afraid and not ready..
My dear vice chair choo min(The onli 1 that rmbs my bdae..Not even blog gal rmbs it..)
I realli feel so grateful to her for rmbing my bdae..
thanks a million:)

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Hee! I finally managed to draw something! Hooray:)
Blog gal used to teach me how to draw these cute stuff..
But i always fail..
Now that i can do it..shes gone..
*Sob*

I wanna sleep now..im gonna continue it another day...
Haiz..I dedicate my blog song to blog gal..
Won;t you hear my yearning for you?

Cont'D

Some incidents on friday gave me quite a bad taste
For first, there was a serious cultural shock.
My sec 4 classmates are quite dao..
Jeez..
Maybe i cudnt get use to them yet
Maybe AJ and their friendly people has redefined my definition of classmates
I just find my sec4 classmates really dao..
I can't realli keep up a happy conversation with any but my closest buddies
God bless my buddies..they are the best
I can sense Jonathan being upset/depressed or maybe he's tired
But being his birthday twin and me being sensitive
I shud be rite ba..
Cheer up Jon! Its my turn to console you nowxD
...
I felt quite upset abt the whole thing
Maybe the wheel has already been set in motion
It maybe too late already...
It make me wonder..
I must appreciate my frens i have now as charlene said
Or else it might be too late...
Suddenly, my AJ frens seem extra special now
They are like the best in the world!

After seeing the teachers, we went to hougang mall for lunch.
I didn't eat though..cus my heart was more on being able to reach potong pasir in time.
And stuff there are quite expensive.
So my buddies ZX and Chng was with me and we all whipped out our psp(Haha)
So we played and chatted
And ZX raised a very true fact
The Class is not UNITED.
Not that i haven't realise it already but i always thought it is just a matter of awkwardness and stuff which explains daoness
But please for god freaking sake
Even someone like me who is like the uber-silent boy have more to say den u guys
It just shows something- something really unnerving.
The class is not united..
And its all my fault..
I wish i could wash everything off
But that classroom, the days of my illusionary love
all will come back to haunt me one day
Every deed i done is like fresh in my memory
If i truly have 1 more chance to relive it
I will, with a new me.
Believe it or not
I was pathetic last year.
I just can't handle the class chairman job
I was afraid to ask the class to hand in forms
I was afraid to ask teachers to sign on the class book
If we could rewind time-that is
Now i can only leave my past behind and learn from it

Den i went jamming with fawwaz and co.
It was the happiest thing i done the whole misery filled day.
There like a mega huge difference with the electric guitar and classical guitar
The frets are smaller-meaning faster fret changing
I don't have to like force my finger on the string- all i ned is to let it rest
the neck is small which is comfortable.
I can for once play easily all 26 frets instead of a measly 16 for my classical
i can freaking do tapping too!
Holy!
It was so unbelievably fun that im now convinced that i must lay my hands on one ASAP:)
I learned to play some drums too-Oh man its really great fun too!
there was like so many different drum sounds that can be created
Unfortunately my sense of rhythm is virtually non-existant.
So maybe i just can't make it as a drummer
I can't sing well too..I need to expand my tone, strength and range. Anybody wanna coach me for free?
I wish i was in a band after that experience..^.^

Den Fawwaz and me rush to AMK hub where we got the class 2nd outing.
And another upsetting incident occurred
Because we haven ate, we went to buy kfc after leaving our bags with the guys
Then after we came back with food, they all LEFT!
WTF?!
Seriously WTF x 10000
My AJ classmates are way way more considerate lah
Can't you guys just freaking wait?
Yes i may be too sensitive
But 2 years of classmateship is worth nothing at all?
Am i just another passing stranger?
Im so seriously appalled by this sight
That my belief of my angelic class is shattered jus like that.
Nonetheless, ZX showed real friendship and stayed with us both
We the trio den poke around AMK hub while chatting
We had real fine chats-the greatest i ever had with them
We initially was like" lets walk home"
I was like erm..Don't you guys stay somewhere around sengkang?
Amk to sengkang...walking..its at night..hm
We decided against it and went to board the same bus home
Another meaningful chat about our future followed.
Haiz as they all alight the bus..
I felt emptiness..loneliness again
I just realli wish there was someone sitting beside me den..
It concluded that painful day..full of sweetness and bitterness

Blog gal's fashion sense is still as sharp as ever.

And yesterday night was even more tear-jerking for me
like literally tear-jerking
I made a terrible mistake-i clicked on blog gal's blog
The rest that followed was just i knew was gonna happen
I cried..and cried and cried..it was until i felt really tired and fell asleep.
I found a really painful fact in her blog.
I don't even want to explain it here..
It has to do with a sms she send and the glaring fact in her blog
That a girl i placed all my love all my trust on, someone i treated as a best buddy
Could be so ...(I no longer want to say anything)
My heart is almost numb already..
so much pain so much torment
Even You must enter my dreams and remind me that you are still a fragment of me
Every day she gives me pain, self-inflicted or by the act of god
Blog gal..I have feelings okay!
Im not a person who cannot feel sorrow

I will never ever read her blog ever again. NEVER!



Bennie out:(