The spectre is more scheming then i thought
Wad an ass..
He won my grandma to his cause le lar..
So much that she is under his spell
Yesterday, I didnt say anything leh
He was probably using the com for the whole day
And my grandma just happily watched as if nothing happened
Den i just use a mere 1 and a half hour in the morning( Maple screwed up on me by having server checks) Which was just used for blogging i guess
He went to use for 4 hrs and den he went to dinner
Apparently he charmed my grandma into saying he wished to continue using after dinner
Too bad i switch it on and now my grandma is scolding me and saying i shud let the spectre use
She said i use VERY long le(ZZZ this is such a ridiculous claim with respect to the spectre)
I pissed enough by the constant DC-ing
And now im getting unfairly treated like im some lesser member of the family?
Not like it has always been fair but this is just ludicrous.
Seriously im so pissed that im going to use the com all the way to midnite
Seriously
Den im going to use it during the middle of the night
Im going to pissed them all off

Why do i always get the silver when he gets the gold?
I have no freaking idea..What on earth have i did WRONG?
I obey the house rules
I only go out with my frens occasionally and stayed at home
I volunteered my services to do house work
I try to save electricity by turning on only the fan
Sometimes i just use the night breeze instead of the fan
I dun rebel
I hardly want to rebuke the elders' words
I sacrifice my own desires just to avoid burning a hole in your wallets

WTH did i do wrong?
TELL MI

And you would rather crown
a person who has time and time defied and disgrace every value possible to
Be your dear prince?
They will regret it when one day he turns into a brat(well he is already..)
And they will all realise that all the money spent lavishly on him( xbox..psp..And all kinds of dumb expensive shit) would all go down the drain

Im sick of these kind of shit
No one seems to care about all the things i have to forgo for the better good

My faith have been placed wrong too many times
My heart is too soft
Even i cannot execute various actions that will leave the spectre fuming
I even thought of his feelings
How soft i am?
I swayed by a person who sold mi 4 GF for 2.1m just becus i put myself into his shoes
and imagined how sad i will be to sell them at low prices
When i know ppl are selling 4 for 2m
I keep forgiving and forgiving thinking that they will all be nice one day
Heck
Curse this people
Am i stupid?
To think ppl will react in kindness too

Im kidding myself
There is no fairy tales in the world
Only miserable ends

I lost my rights to fairness
I lost my place in the home
I lost a hell lots of things
I lost even my love
I will no longer stand by and sacrifice
Only fools do
And im been proven the fool so many times
That hope is just a word used by manipulators to trick fools

How many things must i lose?

Bennie out..