Okie i was in T3 to celebrate my accomplishment of getting Grade 'D' for chinese lol
The bus trip was longer than i thought it was 1 long hour of torture
I hate long bus rides..

Den while wondering the beautiful and enchanting halls of T3 my mum told mi dat i shud be a pilot next time
Well it has good salary and i get to visit alot of countries and stuff which is really cool and stuff
But then it dawned on me dat im going to be flying here and there
Not staying in a place long enough always on the move
My life is never steady in this case and full of changes
Though it mite actually sound exciting
But somehow i feel such a life is quite empty
It almost feels you do not have time to pursue recreation and relationships or simply to appreciate slow moving pace of life

Im afraid that if im ever am a pilot
Den by the time i realised i shud settle down, half of my life would already pass mi by..
Which leads me to a frightening thought
Life is indeed short
According to econs, we have infinite desires
And i realised i can never fulfill everything
There might be like 70 years ahead of me
But i realized i never properly sit down and think of how life will be
How to make use of all the time while im on earth

While i sat on the bus i was scared that there might be a suicide bomber on it
And my life wud just ended like dat
Den ultimately, i came to the conclusion i must have been afraid of death
Afraid that it will carry me away be4 im done

Sometimes i admire politicians in tension field zones
Everytime they poke their head out for a rally
There is a good chance that they mite be killed
And yet they still continued
Bhutto is one of this example

Maybe thats why people think that there is a afterlife
They are just not convinced that they will just fade away and die physically and spiritually

Haiz maybe that is the price we pay for the ability to think

For now, i will just party away my holiday =)

Bennie out=)