Okay so shallow posts heh
Now thats a hard one to solve
For jesus i cant even fathom my own mind at times
So i found this anime character in Hellsing
Kinda like have her personality
Rip Van Winkle
She is just super random and have extreme moods and attitudes
One moment she could be painting the Nazi Swastika with blood
The other moment she is playing with her kiddy alarm clock

Could be the divorce effect
You never could know how much of an effect that has on a young mind
Its strange.
There seems to be this rational side and these emotional and vengeful side warring all the time
So sometimes i do ask
"Who am i really?"
What do i really hope to achieve?
And i cannot answer these questions.
I would liken myself to be reflexive
I am not the same person for different people
It is as if my genetic makeup changes everytime i see a different person
Its not driving me crazy but it intrigues me though
Whats going on?
Maybe i should take a psychology course in uni
So i can find out more about myself=)
Til then, let the war in my head continue unabated.

EDIT: Just came back from a run!
Felt breathless and tired and knackered and what have you
Man im so weak!
Im gonna die in army at this rate!
But i like the feeling of the lactic acid building up
So satisfying when you lie down on the bed
After an intense run=)



Pic of the century?

Bennie out=)