_--A New Start--_

Oh Shi..

2009-08-22T08:50:00.000-07:00

My holiday is almost over
The period of super lull and slackiness is fading away

Next comes recce course which i have recce-ed over the internet
To be the most amazingly hard crazy insane life-threatening terrible thing in the world
I think i better take out some insurance for my shoulders and legs

What?! 1st week leopard crawl in FBO
What is this BULLLSHIT?!
OMG Omg damn it
WHAT?! 8 days outfield!
I mite as well go OCS!
THIS IS SUPER BULLSHITT!!!
WHAT?! People wear the jungle caps even if they didnt earn it and even some random road sweeper in ECP is wearing it!
Arghs!!!!
NOOOOOO
WHAT?! Getting tortured!
Damn it this is MADDDDNEEESSSSS
>.<
Pray for my soul.
T.T

More outfield awaits...Shitttee...

Bennie out:S

OMG OMG SHIT SHIT SHIT

2009-08-16T00:05:00.000-07:00

Offically passed out from BSLC le!
Blog seems like a pain now.
Typing a million letters out seems super bothersome like
And plus i keep forgetting what i want to type!

Anywhere been posted to 3 SIR As a recce trooper
Hm people think im crazy
Since Recce is one of the most xiong unit
Cus cue 30kg load and super long distance marches(60 km anyone?)
But im dying for a challenge
And since i skipped the pitfall of NDU
karma has come to bite me in the ass
Anywhere the camp is nearer den Pasir Super far Laba
Which rocks

Dun noe what to type le
Typing is a pain indeed:O

Bennie out:)

2009-07-25T03:04:00.000-07:00

Little update here:)
Got a cheery little blogskin which i find quite cute and alluring
Had a great temptation to choose a dark skin again
But alas darkness has fled from me

After doing some meditation,
I have reconfigured my beliefs and philosophy
I must stop being passive and stop waiting for things to happen
For they will never happen if i dont act
I must take the initiative to jump start things not wait for someone to draw blood
Like For EG, If i want a GF i must court the person i like
Not wait for ppl to court me
If i want ppl to stop disturbing my precious sleep
Den i must admonish them
Initiative is key!

Going for grandslam soon!
Can see good khai and ashraff
Awesome stuff
Always good to visit our place of 'birth'
Good old Tekong
i just hope i dont screw up the navigation
Or else it will be a long long walk..

Bennie out:)

Voices In The Dark

2009-06-27T08:16:00.000-07:00

My 1st bookout from BSLC.
Feels great:)
Admin was screwed up as usual as with ALL book out times
Ended up booking out 1 and a half hour later den forcasted.

With the super restrictions on what i can say
There is really nothing much to say
Except for cue the title
Vocies in the dark
I need my sleep damn it
I dont give a damn whether i support ur little zaogeng revolution
Nor am i in the right to offer my holiest opinion on how u guys shud conduct yourselves
But from what i seen, I be damned if we go field camp together
Prove me wrong then

Many many more things to say
But the internet police is gonna kill me
Big brother is watching heh

Bennie out=X

The "Hope I never get sent to war" Post

2009-06-21T05:42:00.000-07:00

Due to the great abundance of time dat i have on my hands
I decided to watch movies that are considered classics but i have somehow missed out on them
It started with Terminator 2 which was a jaw-dropping movie
I swear it feels and looks like a new movie that just came out last week
ITs amazing!

Tonight i decided to watch "Saving Private Ryan"
...
...
Gut-Wrenching
Terrifying
Nausea-inducing

And a myraid of emotions
You know watching the 1st 24 mins of the flim
It makes BMTC feels like child play
Cus the Normardy landing made my complaint abt army small and insignificant
Cus i know If i was there,
I would probably panic and turn tail
If i was there i will just probably shoot myself in the head
What is my minor suffering compared to them
Watching your platoon mates get blown to pieces
Watch your buddy who was alive a few seconds ago with his face blown off
Watch bullets fly through the air
Knowing that a single miscalculation will cost you
See Intestines and brain matter all over the place
See helpless mates cry and moan but you cant do anything to help them
God help me if i were there.

Thus this flim gives me a great motivational boost i guess for the course ahead.
After all im not putting my life on the line
But those men were
I can DO IT:)

Bennie out:(
Couldnt bear to watch the rest of the flim.
I tear for those who valiantly lost their lives

SUFFER IN SILENCE + EXTRA CONFINEMENT

2009-06-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

So New unit New life.
Tmr im booking in for a second round of torture>.<
Been enjoying my freedom these past 10 days even if im super sick
But tmr is gonna be the start of chiong sua again

Heard that 1st few weeks will be quite slack
Alot of lectures n stuff
But after that OUTFIELD!
NOOOO
I really hate the jungle
Im going to totally suffer
No bathing check
No nice bed check
Strange insects check
Body full of dirt and sand check
Super dirty uniforms? Check
COmbat Rations! Yucks
at least its not tekong (Well 1 of them will be at tekong)
But still doesnt help to alleviate the painT.T
Hope i get posted out after BSLC=(
Or if ASLC get posted to tekong to become a king:P

SISPEC camp is so far lor
Boon lay.
Im been laughing at my mates all these while becus im just a 30 min ride from pasir ris
Looks like now the tables are turned=O
Hope to get wei han's father ride
That will be awesome!

Went to og outing yst and we went to some ulu bar.
The irony is that we didnt drink there which is kind of wasted
Becus there are so many colourful liquors and wines there
Sparkling blue red and all the nice colours
Really feel like gulping them all down
Den after stoning there for super long
We noticed some people dressing up for some fancy party of sorts
Apparently some Gothic theme party there
One of them wanted us to join along haha
Some of the dress were quite ridiculous though
We just escaped as quickly as possible

After that we went to MOF
And i spammed all the free green tea thanks to Rachel's membership
I think i drank like 3 pots of it ha:P

Bennie out:~

BACK TO TEKONG!

2009-06-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

Woots TEKONG is an awesome place!
WE should all aspire to go there and serve our nation!
Field camp is cool!
Everyone shud go thru field camps
Especially students who lives are too blessed
We need them to know HARDSHIP!
Its is for their own good too FOR we are never safe from our enemies!

Damn im taking the piss here.
My blog skin is cringe-worthy
Tmr i have to go back tekong
Yikes
Back to my least favourite chalet

guard duty heh
What went thru my mind when i volunteered for it
ZZZ

Borrowed some books today
Apparently my brain has rotted
Need to reverse the damage
I dont know about you guys
But civilian life is AWESOME
Cant really fathom going back into those green fatigues
The amount of freedom i have is astounding
Har har
But my physical health is going to take a hit
And my discipline levels going down again
And i feel restless
I rather be working right now like all my female frens
den can go uni le!
Not like stuck in a job which i totally didnt volunteered for and the pay is really shite

If the pay is 3k i dont mind:P
But no its a miserable 420.
Well done.
I can barely support myself on that.
Shows how high living cost is here
Or am i spending recklessly
More like the latter i think.

Anyway i hope i can either go to a Slack unit or SISPEC with their super mega high pay
I probably stick a 50 dollar bill on my locker to motivate me thru each day

Talking about randomness
I really cant sing now=O
All those shouting and screaming has permanently left a mark
I go super off key now..
I want my voice back you miserable SAF cunts!
RWAR
I demand a compensation and a lifetime pass to K-BOX with a supportive and encouraging entourage to hear me sing

On a more serious note
The SAF is really damn inefficient
No wonder they can only sustain a war for 7 days
Not becus we dont have the resources
But becus we waste them like running water
IMO i think we will be owned pretty hard if someone does want to attack us.
I dont think we are that prepared to be honest
And as i was playing Metal Gear yst
One quote stands out,
"Shooting a live human being is not the same as shooting a target board"
I dont think i have the steel to kill someone yet
I probably be like you know those war movies
Those guys who go forward and take a hit for the main hero and hte main hero would be like
"Oh im going to so take revenge"
And den my screen time is over

I see the sense in army if we are like south koreans or americans or indians or pakistanis or blah blah
But in this age of nuclear weaps
We are going to be done for if someone really wants to attack us
Oh well i dont really care
I dont advocate war anywhere
Im a PEACE -loving person^_^

Bennie out:)*I love some bent 3 bars just for the money!*

Sick In The Head

2009-06-15T04:58:00.000-07:00

Im been wondering out of sick and non-sick states for all of block leave.
Cant believe that i didnt fall sick at all in tekong jees
Would have love a trip to the MO

Nothing much to do at home so i decided to polish up my non-existent guitar skills
Had my eye on the song 'Wither' which has trademark petrucci 5 frets stretches
It should be a challenge lol
But i need to learn at least a song or else got guitar for what har
Hope to be done in 3 days.
It is quite an 'easy' song

Halfway thru block leave le!
Frightening!
So fast!
Back to army!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Bennie out:)

2009-06-11T02:47:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey guys! Im back and now im a traaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeeeddddddddddddddddddd SOLDIER!
Arghs the POP was cheesy enough haha
But it is still a memorable one. Guess i can divulge some information out just so
as long as i dont say stuff like bullets caliber blah blah blah

I chose this blogskin for ROFL ness and irony sake(my fav word as attested to by my friends:)
Anyway it looks really quirky and funny enough to me
Whats more with the BMTC logo!
All that is missing is a tune chooning " Through basics, we excel! Blah blah"

I just spent the whole of today stoning around..
the 24km march is simply devastating to the soul and the body
Im still amazed i managed to do it.
Hereby at this juncture, i wish to congratulate those whom accomplished this trying task
It was difficult but with everyone's efforts we did it.
Imagine i was the only one doing the march, i would have took 1 whole day to complete it!
For i will like: Um im feeling abit tired lets just sit down blah blah
Also the commanders were there for us to urge us on
Special mention to SGT Faiz who came back from Kastro to give us a final boost in morale
Also cheers to 2LT Ashraff for his dedication and devotion to make sure none of us gives up
He kept spirits high by leading us on with songs
Speaking of which (and coupled with the sad song that is playing on my media player)
I feel really sad to see them gone
While a joyous event POP is, it is a mourning opportunity for all that is built up over the 8 weeks has the potential to crumble into dust.
There were great memories that were etched in my mind now
Those were the indeed the best of times
I rmb-ed always that i jokingly tell my buddies before booking in while at Pasir Ris Bus Interchange
"Wa i really fucking hate to see your face haha"
Guess we all no longer get a chance to use that phrase anymore

I just feel its really sad because our platoon got much much better towards the end
Perharps it is inspired by the end or field camp or some other reasons
But our experience was simply much better then the 1st few weeks of being punished constantly
Grantedd i dont think our platoon is that bonded much to the illusion of our commanders who think we are getting awesome
I still think i will miss them all alot.
Didnt noe 2 months could do that much to us
Even our jc class took like a year for some bonding to occur
Maybe JCs should have confinement weeks:)
Jokes aside, its really a pity for we are building something truly significant but now some will leave our project
Our project may be complete eventually but it will not be as soulful as if everyone had a hand in it..

Bye Rocky Hill Bye Yankee
And most of all Bye Platoon 3.
It has been a awesome experience admidst tough times
But i believe everyone grew as a result
I wish i could get some photos in
I get them to facebook over:)

What is your profession?
Ah woo Ah woo Ah woo!

2009-04-30T07:24:00.001-07:00

Okay so this is what happened in camp over the last few days

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Well i bounded by the law to be unable to disclose any information
Which is a real pity cus there is really many interesting stuff to write about
I love freedom!
Freedom For ALL
Thinking of booking in makes me sad
To quote AMK
Think of booking out when booking in
Think of booking in when booking out
:P

Bennie out:)
It has been a surreal experience so far

2009-04-13T01:27:00.000-07:00

Yay new blog skin this time.
Pretty simple and stuff.
Was thinking of getting something more sophisticated and intrinsic and i saw 1
But this is just my placeholder screen haha
Til i learn how to create awesome blogskins

Going into the army tmr.
Time flies.
3 weeks!
Wow.
Lets hope i come out in1 piece.
I will miss all of you:P

Bennie out=)
YNWA

2009-04-08T13:56:00.000-07:00

Ah yes the bad dreams and the cold sweat and the general sleeplessness
I knew something was up.
Was saying okay im gonna watch the match at 4.30.(Actually its 3.30, i was never too good at calculating foreign time to sg time conversion :P)
I was having pretty bad dreams about chelsea taking the piss on us.
And was sweating quite badly
Den i switched on to find a link to the match and i saw the tagboard
My nightmares were realised.
3-1 it is at Anfield.
I cant say anything because i never watched the match save for the final alonso shot which is decent.
I aint no whinger and aint going to pretend that who and who play crappily cus again i didnt watch the match
All i can say is that i want them lot to try and have a go next tuesday.
There is nothing to lose.
Even though i cant watch the match, i will still be singing YNWA in my heart.
Oh i would love to visit Anfield one day.
Not many fans around the world still continues to sing proudly when their team is losing.
Would have loved to be born on merseyside but hell singapore is good enough.=)
We all have to lose someday and i hope this is just a minor blip and slight wake up call to all the we own everyone kind of mood.
The best gets beaten all the time cus Man Utd
Are we going to capitulate like them or will we come back with style?

Was thinking of a new blogskin to act as a placeholder for the next few weeks of total inactivity.
But i cant find one yet that embodies what i want
Jees im going to take up lessons on how to design one out
and create the perfect skin heehee

Its quite frightening how fast time passes
Next tuesday is already the enlistment date
So fast.
A new experience beckons
Just hope im all geared up for the ride
And god forbid no injuries to me
And also i want a decent platoon
Not some fucking whingers/cuntish platoon will be fine
Hopefully with liverpool fans
Hopefully NOT chelsea fans haha
I dont mind manchester utd fans, most of them are quite nice ppl.
Would be awesome to have a derby fan haha

Im gonna miss everyone.
Hope i come out fine and stronger and stuff like that.
And I found a nice little phrase to use at the end of each post!

YNWA(You'll Never Walk Alone)
Bennie out:)

2009-03-31T07:14:00.001-07:00

I saw this video a long time ago but it still gives me the creeps.

Amazing technology are these days..I wont be surprised to see a cyborg anytime soon.

Bennie out=)

2009-03-30T03:51:00.000-07:00

Yes i notice i have been absent for quite a while.
Cus facebook is such a marvel to behold=)
But that doesnt mean good old blogger lost its charm
Besides this blog has deeper meaning than that
Lets not go down that road again..

Anyway while browsing through my photobucket album
I notice some pictures i have not uploaded yet
And yes my bdae was quite a dull affair
Though i am infinitely thankful to those who remenbered or bore gifts
Thanks!(Oh not forgetting the peeps who sms-ed!)
Its already celebrated a week ago so not much fanfare here
My last day was more fun instead=X
Anyway to digress away from the issue at hand let me share with you the best sms i received

From thy NOOB from malaysia
"Heard whole of singapore is mourning over today
this day when a Noob was born 19 years ago!
Ah wad a disgrace 2 the country haha.
JK Noob happy birthday!
Enjoy urself:)"

Arghs she wins the cake
Go buy some noob food from yr noob country!RWAR

Anyway pictures yes?

Hm reminds me of going to work in OPSS Cus it really is!

A teacher brought these awesome cupcakes
Well designed and stuff-Almost too cute to eat yea?

Lol buffet on my 'last' Day
It was awesome!

Buffet food 0 - 1 Me

The others relevant pictures can be found in FB
Thanks to my dear frens in the staff room haha=)
Hope they have fun this morning
While i was eating a delicious meal of you tiao and curry puff
They are out there battling their wits against their classes=(
Cant help but feel guilty=X
Oh well karma will give me a kick of justice in 2 weeks time anyway
Im gonna gloat over it while i can!=)

Okay now that its all done and stuff,
Lets answer all the cbox comments den=)

To everyone who bids me farewell
I Bid you farewell in kind
And thank you for the times we spent together
And i wish you luck in your future endeavors
And all Who ask for links and tags shalt receive
Im sure we will see each other again someday somehow

Terrence-Yes we will have thy outing but im not gonna plan it cus im lazy
Charlene is planning it haha
Await her email=)

Elvie-"Art Stream Rawwwksss"
Ladies and Gentlemen
This is FACT!

Terrence-So have you decided what majors you want?
Im still open to options but i picked the DDP of Accountancy and Public policy
Hope i get accepted!

Azri-Haha isnt USP like for the super smart lol
I give it a shot. Where do i sign up though?

Kathyy-Nights! For Randomness! You forgot my bdae rwar!

Yijia-Thanks!

Gina-Hey long time no see!=) Heard you are going to NUS too! Awesome!

Bennie out=)
*Next post will be about Dark Clouds Silver Linings*The new super AWESOME album from Dream Theater!

2009-03-21T21:59:00.000-07:00

Yes i love holidays really!
Why didnt i update?
Cus i fell in love with facebook which is super awesome and easy to use!
Just 5 mins of your time!
Unlike blogger which you spent like an hour agonising on the topic of the day and revising on what you have just typed in for responsibility sake

Fate once again dealt her ugly hand yesterday
Everything comes full circle again when i thought i could pop out of the circle
=(
I hate being a nice person
But i guess the money is a huge draw?=)
Thanks to my now totally jobless family(yeap everyone in my family is jobless)
We have too much free time running around
Though of course it wont be for long once all our money runs out
This joblessness gives my NS a new purpose
I can stop siphoning funds away from the family and i can earn some keep
Awesome
Hope the people in my family get some kind of job soon
Or else we all have to sleep in the void deck=O

About University registration
Its a big pain in the ASS
Too much choices
And i love them all!
I dont really have a preference even though im abit more inclined to the arts section
If you tell me to do business, i can do it for yall
Engineering? No prob
Computing? Never wrote a single line of code in my life? Sure i will learn from the start
Science?i love science=)
You see thats the problem.
I am just interested to learn about stuff that i dont know of or never experience before
But in the end im gonna go for FASS
Time for passion yeah
Have always been wanting to get into the Art stream instead of the science stream
Finally this is a chance haha=)
Too bad there isnt a school that have a marriage between the two disciplines..
Would be awesome.
Probably doing political science(oxymoron?)/psycology/Mass Comm/History/EL Lit/etc
Lol thats alot of subjects
Thats how unmade up my mind is
Luckily we only need to choose faculty for now
Or else i will take like 2 years to finally decide on a major

Army army =)

Bennie out=)

2009-03-12T05:32:00.000-07:00

What did i wanted to say?
Damn the memory bug strikes again!
OH why the hell are there so many ads in my Cbox?!!!
Who did that?!
Admit yourself before i shoot yaw!
Oh well=(
I checked the links nothing interesting though
except for that video game consoles part which might entertain me
Oh talking about memory lapses
I was planning to go to AMK hub to buy stuff for the teachers since they have been most kind to me
So i sat on the train and strangely i stepped out at YCK station
And almost walked to the bus 72 queue when it struck me
Im supposed to go to AMK!
=(
Oh i finally remember the raison detre for the post!
I was feeling kinda sad that today is my last day of teaching
Which is strange because i hate teaching!
See the irony there!
However(Was gonna use BUT but i rmb telling my students to never ever start a sentence with BUT) I get to wake up late everyday!
I will still miss some of them though..
It was a good learning experience i guess
And i made some awesome friends!
=))
Anyway i suddenly have a urge to hug a domo kun
Maybe i saw someone having a domo kun in her facebook pic
Man that thing is cute=)

If anyone can tell me where to find it please tell me=))

Bennie out=)

2009-03-11T02:18:00.000-07:00

Counting down the days
I found something ticklish when i reached home today
A thick book of twilight on his bed
HAHA
He probably cant even get past page 10 ffs!
And he doesnt read novels in his entire life...EVER
Jesus just amazing how people nowsaday just follow trends blindly
You may like hey isnt that great?Reading a novel is good for your english!
I bet my bottom dollar that book will collect a few layers of dust and will promptly disappear this following weekend
A leopard doesnt change its spots

Oh well..Been dealing with younger teenagers too much tend to give you a few new perspectives in life
It has been shocking to see how much the education system have changed
As i said to someone, i wont be surprised if one day, secondary school students can wear home clothes and fiddle with their handphones in classes
Its getting more and more liberal and things is slowly going to go downhill
Too much freedom in our society used to restrictions bodes bad omens
Didnt anyone remember Gorbachev during the last years of the Soviet Union?!
Oh well its nearly behind me now

What i only wished to say to my students
Is to start thinking about others and not yourself only
World doesnt revolve around you
Stop acting like the whole world needs you
By challenging the rules just to gain a little self-gratifications from your fickle friends
I pity you the fool

Time will tell. Time makes a mockery out of all of us.
I hope in all sincerity that time will teach some of them the proper way to treat yourself and others with respect.

Bennie out=)

2009-03-06T19:27:00.000-08:00

Was gonna post a pic of the results slip but my handphone inept 3.2 mega pix camera is unable to do so clearly=X
Feeling slightly gutted yet happy at the same time
Gutted at that WTF burn in hell you bloody chemistry
No seriously i thought i would fare better in chemistry than in physics which i royally screwed up paper 2.
Damn someone is playing with my head
So in the morning i have to teach
My feeling at that moment was still i dont really care how i do!
But as the moment drew closer
I got seriously worried and anxious
Before that i met up with the nooby gang to play L4D
We all died numerous times due to Mel's gung ho ness
Got owned by tanks and what have you and misthrown molotovs cocktails
LOL we got quite a good laugh at that
As we walked towards AJ,
our footsteps grew heavier with every step(yea i know cliche but who cares it works!)
Suddenly i wished the results were next week
Oh congrats to shamm and Shiv
They did our class proud!
Top students baby
Get the fuck in!
Congrats to kai peng too!
Get in!
Everyone was worried and stuff
You could smell the tension in the air(cliche yes)
I queued up at the back lol
Dont wanna get it 1st
So my prediction was actually
PW-B
Chem-B
Maths-A
Phy-B
GP-C
Hist-C
Who wont be pessimistic when they have been freaking failing all the way til prelims
I will be prepared for the worst thats for sure
History was a big screw up cus of Kosovo
Physics paper 2 crap
GP didnt have that feel
So when it was finally my turn
I looked at the smiling Mr Goh as he flipped through the stack of papers to find mine
*drum roll**Heart in mouth*
"Did i do well?" *looks away*Oh no!
"Why you everything do well but did badly for my subject?!"
I looked at the slip
I was like OMG OMG OMG
GP-B(ALL GOOD=))
History-A(JESUS CHRIST)
MATHS-A(Eat that ANDY QUEK!)
PHYSICS-A(OMG WTF Am i dreaming?!)
Chemistry-C!(Okay fuck this)

I was like grinning but that C arghs
I want to give it a righteous kick up it ass
NOOOOO
WHYYYY
A B would be awesome=(
I got a ranking point of 82.5 which is more den 80
=)But that oh no stupid C
Restricts my options
Some of the people ran off before i can ask for their results
Guess its quite a good day=)
After that we went to town to CELEBRATE
Watched Slumdog millionaire
Which is indeed worthy of an oscar
Very well executed and creative
But it just missing something gripping and exciting and revolutionary though=(
Something like the Matrix
Oh well haha
but its freaking 10 bucks RWAR
Recession is in order!
NOOOOO!
Im left with 40 bucks
I hate the world=(
Forgot to take pictures
Cus im so freaking tired due to someone telling me to bring the laptop but den not using it RWAR

Anyway for those who didnt perform as they thought they will
Dont feel so down.
Its not the end of the world yet
Yes i know easy for me to say
But still you got to pick yourself up
The sun still shines tommorow =)

Bennie out=) *Fuck you chem!*

2009-03-03T01:49:00.000-08:00

The Hole In the Mind

Have you guys ever walk down a corridor intending to do something
But you forget what to do once you are at the end of the hall?
Im been experiencing such symptoms recently
Its like freaking dementia!
Im forgetting how to spell alot of words right now
Im forgetting my friends' names
I can hardly remember the names of my students
Its like a gap or void is expanding in my mind
Im slowly forgetting everything!
This is so scary
I better have a check up soon..
Im genuinely frightened
What on earth is going on!?!

Before the slate is wiped clean
I guess i better store some stuff here
So as to when i completely forgets who i am
I can like look through the post and recollect who i was

Hm what shud i put here 1st? Lemme think about it=)

Bennie out=)*Random post for the win!

2009-03-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

Welcome to another monday.
As zheng Xiang puts it Welcome to adulthood!
Time to wake up early and stuff..
I have my own homework to do too...
Should have done office work
Hours might be long but hey!
You got no homework!
Cant bloody wait for results just cant wait for it
Good or Not
It better come out soon
Cus thats the only thing im looking forward to
Life have degenerate to the point of crossing out dates on the calendar just for the sake of it
Wish i was studying..
As least everyday we have great times together
Teaching aint half as fun as studying
And i cant believe some of the students think that their life is a miserable hell
Wait til you grow up!
Where you got to pay for your own survival, your family survival , bills..
Oh and some of them needs to buck up and wake their ideas
Apparently their morals needs a kick up their arse
The world doesnt revolve around you alone!
Think about your peers and your future and your parents
People wasting their future away or thinking that they are above the law makes me sick
I totally abhor them.
I swear im gonna slap a gazillion SIPs already
I have given them a million chance to self correct
Its for your own good if you get punished
Some of them kids are so fucking spolit
You wished you could dump them in africa to learn some vital life lessons
On treating your life better and not taking everything for granted
If they could do that my job will be much more enjoyable
Mature young adults who could think for themselves and everyone around.
Time will tell.

Bennie out*RWAR*

2009-02-28T08:55:00.000-08:00

Just an extremely bad day today?
Liverpool got freaking thrashed by god damn boro.
My 10 bucks got swallowed by the ticketing machine
I lost my freaking towel
My ban mian stall ran out of you mian
It freaking rained when i wanted to get home from hougang
What in hell is going on..?!
Now im just freaking downcast
A levels results coming out on friday
And all these unlucky crap found me out
It is just a really bad vibe
Like something shocking and bad is going to happen to me
Like me getting struck by lightning on a clear and sunny day
Or slipping on a puddle on water and breaking my spine
Or a potted plant falling on my head and me ending up in coma
Its that sinking feeling of dread and doom
Yeap i did have fun with the other guys today but
So many bad things happened today..
It is surely a sign of things to come
bad things i say...

And now i go to sleep in fear
Will tomorrow be a better day?

Its one of those days where everything seems to go wrong for you(ignoring the happy things that is)
I should really do more good deeds.

Bennie out=O

2009-02-23T02:51:00.000-08:00

The HOUR is NEAR!

Other than that life still goes on.
Every week is started with a single promise i made to my head.
Make it to the end of this week.
To friday!
I have been doing that for the past 8 weeks.
God i hate teaching.
The constant guilt of your students' future burdens me
But i realise it takes two to tango
And it get really disheartening at times
So much that i just want to give up on some of them
The hour is nigh though
I hope the next three weeks will pass quick
So i can get back to waking up late every day:P
After all i deserve a little break after nearly 12 years of studying and waking up early
Though the novelty of that will wear off soon im sure
With that i salute all my past teachers
Being in their shoes has truly made me realise its not easy to be them
And im only doing less than half of their true job load
Imagine a full load=X
I probably will just collapse and die
Or i can just teach maths or science/history=)
Now that sounds like a plan.
A levels results coming out probably next week
which is awesome
Cant wait to get it
Not that i think i will perform well
But i want to use the chance to meet up with frens again
More of the frens part than the result part actually
Though i will do a gazillion cartwheel around the hall if i score above 80.
Cus that my friends is a complete bloody miracle for someone who have been scoring Us all these while and sleeping during lectures and not doing homework
Peace=)

1 week to judgement
3 weeks to rest
6 weeks to Hellfire and gloom=)

Cant wait for friday..really..

Bennie out=) (Erm if you're somehow still reading this blog, can i somehow see you one last time? No idea why though just wanna see you again. I will be contacting you soon anyway if you already cease reading this blog..)

2009-02-13T03:32:00.000-08:00

Its the time of the year again
Where people cry in the corner of the room
While others dance under a glass moon of romance and beauty
T.T
Anyway great thanks to those who bid to make my V-Day slightly less miserable=)
So there is NTU talk tommorrow!
Looks like i will be spending V-Day with my frens instead...
Not like its a bad thing haha
I still have to give tuition tmr RWAR
Strange im kinda shy today...
Couldnt get things out of my mouth
Must be the time of the month heh:P
Oh well 4 more weeks to the end of my career..
Seems suddenly all together abit short
But frankly i cant wait for it to end!
I miss waking up early...=(
Now will you excuse me
As i daydream of a day as glorious and joyful
When the angel of love descends and grants upon me and my dream girl
the blessings of a eternal bond
Where we will dance and make merry
Under a sky blanketed by the shining lights of freedom and happiness
Then the sweet soft grass will welcome our fatigue
And we will look into each other in the eye
As sparkling and enchanting as the most wonderful of stars
And we will say,"So this is love"

Bennie out=)

2009-02-08T01:18:00.000-08:00

FACEBOOK!

I thought i will share something about this peculiar app on the application
It somehow reminds me of The Sims or any other social interaction games
So i got a bunch of friend requests today.
But tbh i dont know them!
The only basis as to why we should even remotely be friends is that we have a lot of common friends
So i added them which i always do
Den a thought popped up in my head
Would people 'add' friends as easily in real life?
I can only imagine
Person A sees Person B on the street with Person C who is a friend of Person A
Person A-"Why, Hello C. Nice to see you around."
Person C-"Hello! What a coincidence!"
Person B-*More often than not will keep silent
Blah blah after 5 mins of coversation
Person A-"May i know you more? B"
Person B-"I accept!"
A and B-"Awesome we are now friends!"
Im pretty sure that wont happen at a mainstream level that soon
So what is hindering most of us from abandoning our inhibitions?
I always thought it was funny that you can make a friend in The Sims by Chat x5 hugx3 make jokex3 purposex1 make outx1 And jesus you are now married!
Maybe firstly, everyone(at least almost everyone) is much nicer than their real life counterparts(And more vulnerable as can be seem from chatrooms fiascoes)
Perharps it is that we do not detect things like facial expressions and tones and body postures
And everyone comes to assume everything spoken is genuine, nice and friendly
Secondly, i think we are that just more trusting and open when we cant see each other's faces
Its like for example on MSN, if you run out of things to say, you can pretend to go AFK and watch some youtube vids den come back 5 mins later and continue the topic
Try doing that in real life
*in the middle of conversation*
Hold on i think i have a listen of my newest songs first or i think i stone for 5 mins
Talk to me later

I know this is pretty random=)

Bennie out=)

2009-02-06T04:07:00.001-08:00

Its been a week of intense up and downs
Ups include passing my Basic Theory Test(Awesome:D)
Going to Sec 2 Reunion !
Finding my good ole primary school Friends!
Seeing the Malaysia noob
Meeting up with the others!
Drawing 100 dollars from the BANK!
Getting my 2nd salary!
Winning Chelsea!
Buying my mp3 player!

Downs include:
Losing to everton
Theft Case in 1C1
3B1 getting out of control
Taste of some 2C1 goodness
Tiredness
Running out of money
Not finding a new awesome band

On the good,
Passing the driving test was pretty unexpected
Considering i did a trial test and the computer screen slapped me with a BIG RED Failure!
Nooooo!
At that moment, my pride was at stake
I told my mum lol like who can fail so many times
So easy de
Oh noes
I was pretty much owned
But it was a good awakening
I hurried to memorise all those seemingly insignificant details
Like i didnt know there was a rule that all roads have a inherent speed limit of 50 unless otherwise stated
Good thing i know now!
Went into the test room and i was expecting paper and pencil lol
Instead its all computerised!
Such a grand surprise!
Alot of people were doing the test along with me
People of all ages and races
There were like 20000 CCTVs inside lol
So you cant really cheat
I think the questions are randomised
I got the easier batch admittedly
Oh i thought it was really cool when they showed you those computer created videos to simulate actual traffic conditions
I thought it looked kinds cute haha
I was really impressed by those vids
I breezed through the 50 questions
And before i know it i have finish it in 10 mins=)
But i didnt dared to press end test
For the results will pop up immediately!
If i fail, i can imagine the 2 Bangladeshi people next to me would be silently chuckling to themselves!
Cus when you pass or fail
The results were in be in rather huge letters for all to see
So it would be MEGA embarrassing if you fail
Alas i passed!
Felt a wave of awesomeness rise up from within the very chamber and abyss of my heart
Corny^^
But thats exactly how i felt
It was stunning the feeling
I swear i could feel a aura of power as i left the room
As if all else would fade into obscurity in my wake lol

Tmr is sec 2 reunion!
Should be awesome sauce

Somehow yuen tuck managed to find my face book account
And i got tagged into this pri 3 photo they uploaded haha:D
I cant identify myself at first though
Til i cheated and look at the row description at the bottom
I look funny=X

Nooby stuff from M'sia
"Thx guys for coming all the way to woodlands tho its quite far for some of you esp the hougang noob."
I saw that noob!
Though she is pretty good in Air-Hockey
But i believe that to be a stroke of luck=)
I can probably beat her with my eyes closed !
See you again some time noob
Look forward to eating that so called better den hougang mall de qiu lian ban mian lol!

I drew 100 dollars from the bank!
You know that insastible feeling when you are reaping the fruits of your own rewards?
Thats the feeling
Feels sweet!
But im left with 70 + now haha
Swensen stuff is ridiculously overpriced!
Pay day is on sunday though!
Chance to refill!

Rent-Boys are totally dominated by the rampant liverpool
You guys didnt waste my effort in staying up late to watch!
Was utter joy!

Mp3 player!
I was supposed to buy a PS3
Cus i wanna play rock band being the musican i am
But it was just simply too expensive!
600 for the console omg!
and 300 for the rockband
Now thats just way way way crazy
No way am im going to spend my entire fortune!
So i settled for a mp3 player since i was missing some personal music loving
Now i can blast out rocking tunes and no one can hear it!
Isnt that great?!

Dont wanna talk about bad things
Drive me up the wall some of them

Bennie out=S

2009-02-02T02:37:00.000-08:00

Okay so shallow posts heh
Now thats a hard one to solve
For jesus i cant even fathom my own mind at times
So i found this anime character in Hellsing
Kinda like have her personality
Rip Van Winkle
She is just super random and have extreme moods and attitudes
One moment she could be painting the Nazi Swastika with blood
The other moment she is playing with her kiddy alarm clock

Could be the divorce effect
You never could know how much of an effect that has on a young mind
Its strange.
There seems to be this rational side and these emotional and vengeful side warring all the time
So sometimes i do ask
"Who am i really?"
What do i really hope to achieve?
And i cannot answer these questions.
I would liken myself to be reflexive
I am not the same person for different people
It is as if my genetic makeup changes everytime i see a different person
Its not driving me crazy but it intrigues me though
Whats going on?
Maybe i should take a psychology course in uni
So i can find out more about myself=)
Til then, let the war in my head continue unabated.

EDIT: Just came back from a run!
Felt breathless and tired and knackered and what have you
Man im so weak!
Im gonna die in army at this rate!
But i like the feeling of the lactic acid building up
So satisfying when you lie down on the bed
After an intense run=)

Pic of the century?

Bennie out=)

2009-01-31T20:06:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Pkz8dM9PjQ
Lonely Day by System Of A Down
I cant embed it here for it was requested to be disabled

You will probably notice that there is a grammar error in a one line
"Most loneliest day of my life"
But its probably on purpose to harmonize with the music

But what is most important is that i learned there is something fascinating about the music video
In almost every scene, something is on fire and nobody ever notices it
So there are various interpretations by fans
And some of them are incredible

1:This song is actually about Daron being in a fight with his current girlfriend and his ex. They were both really mad at him, so he felt like he was alone that day, therefore: the name. He said this himself in an interview on www.soadfans.com

2:I belive the song may be about a lose of someone close to one of the band members. And how eveyday following that is lonely be cause of the person not being there. And the person is happy to of survied the lose of the person but unavoidably will always fell the lonlyness ever more. Almost as if when he says it's a day he was glad he survived he trying to reassure himself all will be well with the days yet to come.

3:if you've ever seen the video it shows not only daron, serj, John and shavo, but regular people doing things with their daily lives. but in almost every shot, something in the background is on fire, but no one is taking any notice to it. I think the point of this song is that there is so much drama, chaos, and issues in the world, but no one really is taking any notice to it- weather it be the govornment hushing it up, or peoples' fear of getting mixed up in any of the issues and getting themselves hurt, so they choose to ignore things and go on with their normal lives.
(I thought this was the pinnacle of analysis)

I wish i could have such awesome deductive skills=(

And yes there is nothing to do at home, hence lonely day .
I wish there was a fast forward button
Fast forward to A level results
FF to army
Have fun for a few weeks then decide i skip all the torturous parts
FF to work
FF to finding love
FF to family
FF to old age
FF to death?

If we simplify it all down, life looks simple
Its almost a strange revelation that life is in fact that simple
But as we all know, alot of people like to make it more complicated than it really is. me included
So i was hearing about backstabbings
Hate-mongering
And all sorts of ultimately meaningless self-sastifying activites
Corporate politics
It really amazes me the last few years to see this
And it shattered the belief that i held the world is either black or white
And it undeniably corrupted me
For now i engage to a certain extent in what can only be described as despicable acts
It almost shocks me that we all revel in such a atrocious transgressions
But thats only because we govern ourselves by invisible moral guidelines
I cant see where this is all going
Sounds like ramblings of a mad man
Somehow i come to terms that there must be a sort of yin-yang balance in the world
For every charity donation, there must be relationship breaker
For every help the elderly cross the road, there must be a betrayal
We cannot be all-good or all-bad
For without bad, we will not know good and vice versa

And back to the point that life is so insignificant
It so happens that my music player in playing dust in the wind by kansas

I close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone
All my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity
Dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind
Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind

Don't hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away, all your money won't another minute buy

Dust in the wind, All we are is dust in the wind

Sad really. Makes me wanna give up on life because in the end there is no result
But i must say its in the process not the end product for which there is none=)
This makes me feel much better now=)

Go out there and do something good!

Bennie out=S(Delirious from *mushrooms* thus all the random rants)

2009-01-28T03:44:00.000-08:00

So inspired by my songs to blog and the recent happenings all around me

Was listening to What About Love by Heart
Then i heard the chorus

What about love
Dont you want someone to care about you
What about love
Dont let it slip away
What about love
I only want to share it with you
You might need it someday

Hmm..
Furthermore im been reading romeo and juliet
Jesus i'm suddenly infected with ze love bug

Well for a start i dont really plan to start a relationship anytime soon
But if the chance comes
Then i wont deny it of course
You know that feeling where you feel like buying something
But there is always this cautious and irksome voice that tells you to wait for something better
Yea thats how im feeling right now
Plus i plan to have a stable career and gain some new talents(Like the piano=X)
Before embarking on a journey to fulfill the void left behind by love

So what i am looking for in a girlfren?
Thats a good question cus honestly i dont have an answer
Well some criterias though=)
-Mature enough to know when to be serious and when to have fun=)
-Loves exploring new lands and boundaries!
-Loves music(++ if you love my genres of music!)
-Not too bad at talking or can be used to long periods of randomness and silence
-Kind-hearted
Optional!
-Loves playing games and sports!
-Supports Liverpool!

Thats all really.
You dont have to look like Miss Universe
Looks is only but secondary
But of course you have to respect yourself and not be too shabby=)

So yea i told you im random:P

Bennie out=)*Hell yea 270th post!

2009-01-27T02:43:00.000-08:00

The 4 days holiday is almost over..
How time flies
And it has been most boring once again.
But i guess i should be grateful that im actually celebrating CNY
There are alot of unfortunate people out there yea
But anyway not to digress.
Stoned for the weekend
Yesterday went to my Great-grandma house for the 'gathering'
Her house is just too small really
Maybe we should book chalet next time?
But maybe not
The family aint that tightly knitted anyway
Cant stand the thought of having to sleep next to some of them
Plus nobody will ever cough up the money anyway
Apparently everyone is too calculative to do so
But thats none of my problem yea
Problem is that the 'gathering' is missing the fun and joyful factor
Everyone just cant wait to leave
Which is partly cus there is nothing to do at her house really
But still...
You shouldnt like leave 45 mins after you just come in
That is just low..
Pathetic really
Couldnt recognise half of the people there cus frankly
They either didnt come for the last few years or we missed them
But those look like a decent bunch of people
Cousins look drastically different but that is granted since its a million years i seen them
Didnt talk to them though cus its been too long
I have an idea that im exerting a 'I look down on you aura'
Propagated by some assholes in the family
Jesus Christ
I didnt bloody look down on anyone whoever your are
Stop spreading rumors just because you are jealous
Bloody hell man
Sickening when your own family members have to resort to such measures to chalk up some self-sastifaction in gaining revenge
FFS
Anyway yea there was the hongbaos
But i didnt really care how much $$ there were
Up til now i still have not counted mine
I dont really care about those
As long as you give, im grateful.

Damn why cant our family be like ze others?
But hey i should be grateful again cus some dont even have families
Still need to let off some steam no?
Planning on going to YJ house on sat.
But i dont mind you guys come over to my house
Cus i can save on transport fee LOL

Now im gonna stone at home
Not sure really what to do..bored to tears

Sometimes life is so empty ..
Without purpose..
Wish i was doing something momunental and useful
Maybe like building a brick school for poor kids
Maybe like scaling Mt Everest
Maybe on board a space shuttle
I really wonder what you guys do on the internetz
Because frankly im bored by the 30th min.
And no i dont really look at blogs
Its quite ironical but really i dont enjoy looking at blogs
You either learn of things best not known
Or you gained a new perception and bias towards people
And trust me
They cloud your judgement.
*Resist myself from launching a tirade about media influence
Have a nice Niu Year everyone
Hope the new year will be great yes?

Or for the Morbid and Pessimistic view, to quote pink flyod
"You are young and life is long and there is time to kill today
And then one day you find ten years have got behind you
No one told you when to run, you missed the starting gun"
For which if i adopt said views
I should geniunely be doing something instead of gluing my eyes to this laptop.

Bennie out=S

2009-01-19T03:28:00.000-08:00

Okay im been whining too much i figure=X
Im gonna get down and dirty from now on
Here a list of goals to set:
-Get my students to write a decent narrative essay
-All of them to pass the compre test
-Hardest goal-->Get them interested in the fine workings of english

-Get fit myself jesus

Oh Go liverpool!The teachers (devoted man utd fan they are) are rooting out for a everton shock
Torres to score a the critical goal after 5 hit-the-post attempts and a few air misses by robbie keane=X

Bennie out=)

2009-01-18T04:35:00.000-08:00

Im gonna answer my fan mails he..* i mean chatbox

Yijia-Hello thank you for the constant encouragement. I really appreciate it=)

Azri-Im teaching english. A subject which i cant teach the basics well cause i myself cant tell an adverb from an adjective lol. What i can offer is how to answer comprehension and write essays.
But it seems the syallabus is based on all those basic stuff!

Terrence-Life is great=) But i do not feel as sastified that is..Cant wait for A levels results release!

The Noob-Shut up!!Anyway thank you for the encouragement haha. Look forward to seeing you in the noobiest capital in the world, Kuala Lumpur lol=X

Mel-I would say i have the easiest job of us all. After all my hours are the shortest. But my belief is such that i must do the best in all my jobs for i hold responsibilty and liability for every dollar i earn. And frankly that belief is not being fufilled now.
I feel sorry and sad when i marked their assignments..i really wished i could somehow improve their english standards and make them enjoy this beautiful language
But i cant..So i felt im doing myself and them wrong.
Its the crushing physcological and mental burden that is tiring me..
Everyday i ponder how to improve their english
But i really lack the wit and the expericence and the commanding aura of a real teacher
And also education is a 2 way street.
Both sides must contribute.
Some of the students just really are not interested
And this adds further to my guilt
I always tell myself i cannot leave anyone of them behind
But if they are not interested i really cant do much
I really feel like giving them a earful really
Like Wake The hell up
Stop fooling around. You're no longer a kid.
Think about your future
Think about how hard your parents work to put you in school.
Stop wasting your life and future!
Sometimes it sickens me really
I wish i can teleport some of them to freaking Africa
So they can understand how precious education is
Its a real pity really
This is what prosperity and peace have won for our kids
But hell they are just teenagers
Their view point and beliefs are more often than not clouded and distorted
By their peers and the forces of the media and society
I would not blame them thus
But i just wished they give some thought to their future and how lucky they really are to be in singapore.
And i rather worked for KFC or some random company for longer hours and lesser pay
Cus i feel im doing something right for them
But in teaching, i dont feel im doing my duty as a teacher
To bring out the best in them all..
For me job sastifaction is above all even pay and working hours

Alex-Hey thats what im getting at haha=) Glad to see someone agrees man. Freedom of speech is overrated=X

Another day to try to change their attitudes towards studying..

Bennie out=~

2009-01-15T05:15:00.000-08:00

So i have nothing to do as usual so i decided to visit my super forsaken GP blog
And frankly i was surprised by the stuff i wrote that.
I was like wow i wrote something like this?!
I was particularly impressed by the article on freedom of expression

Since the question states whether Singer's view or Szilagyi's view is better for singapore, my answer is that Szilagyi view is more suitable and more appropriate. For one, our own Singapore government practices a similar style too. Even though Freedom of expression is believed to be a right for human beings, fact is that it is simply too impractical to the real world. Humans are a creature that wants to believe that they are always right...there is no exception. The idea of freedom of expression contradicts these inborn trait to be always right as any issues that need to be supported by the 'self-made' law of freedom of expression is likely to be a criticism against something. Take a moment to think about ..am i right? For example take the cartoon ridiculing Prophet Muhammad. If the cartoonist do not have a point to be make about Islam, then there is no reason for the cartoon to exist. These cartoonists then claim to be invoking the law of freedom of expression which is just simply wrong. It is just an excuse for a mistake they made. May i even dare say these people are selfish for whatever reasons they drew the cartoon as clearly they are do not take into account the consequences. So is satisfying one's desire to print their own ideals worth the chaos and lost lives?

We all know that Singapore takes the issue of freedom of expression very seriously. There quite a lot of censorship of criticism and all media is pretty much under tight scrutiny of the government. There have been uproars from both local scenes and foreign alike about the lack of freedom but seriously, what have we lost? Nothing significant compared to the invaluable peace and harmony we have obtained. Look elsewhere-The united States for instance. Freedom of expression is pretty much valued there. See what happens there? Riots, Allegations of white ill-treating blacks and vice-versa. Sometimes we had to look at issues with a wider scope instead of limiting to ourselves. The fallacy of humans to be selfish and too self-centered gives freedom of expression a bad name, using it an excuse to say out socially-irresponsible statements. We should be willing to sacrifice a bit of freedom of speech to maintain peace. Its better for the whole world this way.

Of course you may question where are all the hard facts?
Which i would say there is none:P
But it sounds pretty convincing if you see it as an abstract text, no?

I dont think i can write something like that anymore
Seems to have lost the ability to write
Suddenly i miss gp...
Im actually regressing lol

I cant even write simple chinese characters anymore
Jesus i think there is something wrong with my memory=X

Another day to grind tmr..
haiz..

Bennie out=X

2009-01-10T02:34:00.000-08:00

The first week of teaching is officially over but man it feels like years!
I just feel mentally and physically exhausted.
How i miss the holidays now
What an irony when a few weeks back i wished i rather went back to school as a student that is
Now i fully appreciate the work done by all of my teachers
Even those whom i dun really like
This could potentially the hardest job i have taken on so far
Because of 1 reason
The lives of many depends on me
Whereas in the other jobs im working for a faceless organisation
Teaching is a job where you are working with tangible elements
And they are organic and responsive
And how their lives develop is up to you
I feel the burden is pretty crushing considering my inept really
I feel guilty receiving my pay at the end of the day
Because i always felt i have not done enough
Every day is a day left in regret and helpless-ness
I wish i could do more for them really
But i know my abilities are limited
I just hope they do not regress from my charge
So once their more capable teachers come back
They can once again benefit from the joy of learning

Anyway some job offers from various faceless companies

Patients Service Executive/ Clinic Assistant needed immediately!!! (Location: West of Singapore!!!)
(Singapore)

Responsibilities:

* Assist in registration for patients
* Liaise between doctors, nurses and patients
* Handle phone calls and schedule appointments
* Attend to customers' enquiries and feedbacks
* Provide administrative support such as filing and data-entry
* Perform as-hoc duties when required

Requirements:

* O Levels/ A Levels/ Diploma/ Degree Holder welcomed, Minimum 3 O level credit passes or Minimum 5 N level credit passes
* ORD Personnel Strongly welcomed
* Willing to work 5.5 days minimum or 3 rotating shifts
* Diploma holders who are looking for a career in healthcare industry are welcome!
* Positive attitude and good interpersonal skills
* Female working environment
* Proficient in MS Office
* Singaporeans and Singapore Permanent Residents ONLY

Interested candidate please send a copy of resume in MS Word with recent photo to temp@recruitexpress.com.sg (Attn email to Clarence) or call 67363280 for more enquiries

Cylon Interactive Pte. Ltd.

We are Singapore’s premier software publisher with the trendiest range of mass appeal software.

We seek a suitably qualified, fun-loving yet responsible individual to fulfill the following role:
Data Entry and Order Processing Clerk
(Singapore)

Responsibilities:

* Daily Order Processing

* Sales Reconciliation

* Report Generation

Requirements:

* "O" levels and above.

* MS Office in particular a strong command in MS Excel.

* A good command in the English language.

* Experience in Microsoft Navision is advantageous

* Fresh graduates/Entry level applicants are encouraged to apply.

* Singaporean citizens or PR status only need apply.

If you cherish a career in a dynamic and rewarding work environment, please submit your resume attention to the Sales Director at

humanresource@cylon.com.sg

Good day people=)

Bennie out=X

2009-01-07T01:10:00.000-08:00

Hey guys=)
Im going out soon and this com was just fixed by Mr Technician guy
So i wont be able to make a comprehensive update to his blog=0
What i will do is post job listings i got through my job street applications that might interest you guys=)
You might want to spread this news to your frens if they are unemployed and is looking for work.

Cylon Interactive Pte. Ltd.

We are Singapore’s premier software publisher with the trendiest range of mass appeal software.

We seek a suitably qualified, fun-loving yet responsible individual to fulfill the following role:

Data Entry and Order Processing Clerk
(Singapore)

Responsibilities:

Daily Order Processing

Sales Reconciliation

Report Generation

Requirements:

"O" levels and above.

MS Office in particular a strong command in MS Excel.

A good command in the English language.

Experience in Microsoft Navision is advantageous

Fresh graduates/Entry level applicants are encouraged to apply.

Singaporean citizens or PR status only need apply.

If you cherish a career in a dynamic and rewarding work environment, please submit your resume attention to the Sales Director at

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Mount Pleasant Veterinary Centre

Advertised: 7-1-09 | Closing Date: 5-2-09

RECEPTIONIST
(Singapore)

Requirements:

Ability to handle Mandarin Speaking Clients
Must not be afraid of dogs and cats
Ability to work weekends
GCE “O” / “N” / ITE Level
Preferrably with experience in customer service
Willing to work in a veterinary centre environment

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Urgent!!! Customer Serv Representatives/ Admin Assistant (3 to 6months) - ORD/ Diploma/ O Level
(Singapore)

Responsibilities:

Customer Service Assistant

- Attend to customer's enquires on general or billing matters
- Undating and maintaining of customers' database
- Assisting customers in relieving their concerns

Sales Care Consultant

- Attend to customer's enquires on products
- Providing customer service to customers
- No telemarketing involve!

Data Entry

- Simple Data Entry
- Filing and photocopying of documents
- Generate Reports
- Update database

Requirements:
Customer Service Assistant

Full-Time Requirements

- 8.5 hours of rotational shift work
- Must be able to work rotational shifts on weekends and public hoildays
- A shift allowance of S$10 will be given for work starting from 10.30am
- Taxi Reimbursement will be provided
- Candidates currently studying in University and Polytechnic may apply!
- Renewable contract upon completion
- Min N Levels/ O Levels / A Levels / Polytechnic Diploma / Fresh School Leavers / ORD-Personnel/ Students may apply!
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BGC Group
30 Raffles Place
#19-01, Chevron House
Singapore 048622
Telephone: (65) 6535 9696
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Admin Asst (Temp to Perm) $1500, Town 5 days
(Singapore)

Requirements:

Job Description/ Requirement Job Scope

Performs general administrative and support duties to the Purchasing Department of a local and listed company in logistics and oil & gas Industry.

Requirements

Min "N"/"O" level

1 - 2 years of working experience. Fresh may be considered.

Proficient in MS Applications

Able to start work at short notice- 3 weeks.

Hardworking, good interpersonal skills and able to work in a fast-paced enviornment

Abililty to converse in Mandarin preferred in view of chinese-speaking customers and associates

Singaporean/ PR

5 Day Work Week

Office Location: Town, Singapore

NB: Temp ( 3 mths ) to Perm Position

To Apply

Please forward detailed resume by choosing option " Apply in Word Format Resume" with complete personal and work particulars, current and expected salary, date of availabilty to commence work and a recent photograph.

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Thats about it. i will update you guys should there be more offers=)

Peace

Bennie out=)

2008-12-31T07:31:00.000-08:00

In a few minutes time it will be nEW YEAR!
Here wishing everyone a good year ahead!

So New year resolutions here heh:
Lets see
Seeing that this is an NS year
Then there is not much to wish about lol

Hope i get into a good unit with funny ppl
Hope i get good A levels grades!
Hope everyone will stay happy
Hope i dun screw up my teaching career that starts the day after tommorrow

i dun know what to say lol
Im just mega anxious for my teaching job
Am i up to it really?
Will i like freeze in front of 40 ppl?
Oh noes
The worries!

bennie out=)

2008-12-29T03:26:00.000-08:00

Sorry no pics for this post=X Will get some soon!
Had to wake up like super early this morning
Feels like school all over again...or maybe because its really school!
Mis-estimated the time and woke up way too early
Arrived at khatib at 7.20 am lol when the meeting supposed to start at 8.30!
So being the usual picky eater, I roamed the intricate mazes of the khatib neighbourhood
in my quest to unearth the greatest breakfast fit to fill my bowels!*notice the upgrade in english used ROFL*
I settled for yam cake after 40 minutes=( What an anti climax=X

So went in and everyone was on super friendly mode from the security guards to my fellow relief teaching peers
But i was too jaded to switch to talkative mode so i was permanently on shy mode today=(
So i just listened to the girls having their talks n stuff heh=X
We had to listen to uh..Actually most of the 8 hours lecture is pretty hazy!
I wasnt paying attention most of the time.
We have some awesome food catered for us though
Their principal seem like a nice person
Why the teachers there all feel like students lol!
They were noisy at times and fooled around as if they never really left their school uniforms behind!
They showed us a video detailing their retreat in 2008 and they were fooling around at their ripe old age haha young at hearts i reckon=)
The Relief teacher from RJ thought AJ food was good
Hm..
Food for thought that statement=XForgive the pun
Then came the moment of the timetables
And wow i got quite a workload!
Teaching 4 different classes!
Madness!

And also my class has a student who has previously got suspended for stuff like fighting
Whom the school decided against expelling him at the last moment
Due to his sudden change of heart to turn over a new leaf
Lets hope he is sincere
Cus i dont want to witness a fight on the first day of school!

There is the induction tmr.
Honestly im pretty nervous
I now feel full of admirance to english teachers all of a sudden
Here to you Peter herd jasbir koh miss quek.
How you keep the class entertained for english is beyond me=X

Bennie out=)

2008-12-27T05:11:00.000-08:00

Great song and video. Nuff said. Enjoy=)

*weeps=(

2008-12-23T23:00:00.000-08:00

HAPPY XMAS!
Its a bit early and stuff but still happy xmas!
Hope you guys get loads of presents!=)

Here are some og photos from mondays outing=)

Meijuan unglam photo=X

So anyone got any outing for xmas tmr?
Oh ya i got no $$ left..
Better not go anywhere haha

Oh ya we should do something for new year eve no?
Pls sms me if you have any plans haha.

Bennie out=)

2008-12-18T05:48:00.000-08:00

Forgot to wish mel a happy 18th bdae=)
Stop dying in pw so much you noob lol.

Couldnt think of what present so this would do fine for the moment;P

Cant wait for january to come then i can start work.
Man its really boring at home=X

I dedicate The Rain Song to all you people out there. Beautiful song really. Listen on a rainy afternoon for maximum effect.

Lyrics are here: Up for you to interpret really for such is the beauty of top class lyrics:
It is the springtime of my loving - the second season I am to know
You are the sunlight in my growing - so little warmth I've felt before.
It isn't hard to feel me glowing - I watched the fire that grew so low.

It is the summer of my smiles - flee from me Keepers of the Gloom.
Speak to me only with your eyes. It is to you I give this tune.
Ain't so hard to recognize - These things are clear to all from
time to time.

Talk Talk - I've felt the coldness of my winter
I never thought it would ever go. I cursed the gloom that set upon us...
But I know that I love you so

These are the seasons of emotion and like the winds they rise and fall
This is the wonder of devotion - I seek the torch we all must hold.
This is the mystery of the quotient - Upon us all a little rain must fall...It's just a little rain...

Bennie out~.~

2008-12-18T02:31:00.000-08:00

Here are more photos from D & D=)

Chao=)

2008-12-11T21:47:00.000-08:00

Arghs im done with waiting=X
Im gonna post some pics nao!

Today i went to khatib for a job interview at Orchid Park Sec=)
For relief teaching there
So i came early(as usual) went up to one of those void deck benches to sit
Then this cat came along and meowed to get my attention
But he didnt distract me from my Real Football 2009 mobile game
That is until he leaped up onto the bench beside me and sat there
I was like wow you sure are courageous to come so near to a human
Then i went back to my game and the next moment he or she was on the table this time
Trying to take a swipe at my phone=X
So i took a photograph of ot
He or She was sitting right in my face=)
How often do you see such an adventurous cat?

Bad kitty=X
Anyway, the teaching job sounds pretty challenging
Firstly, cus its freaking english
And secondly, im teaching what the teachers call to be a rather rowdy class
God bless us all=)
Frankly, i love challenges
But i cant bring myself to scold people
So Will i be able to drag people to the guillotine if needed be?
Time will tell

Now pics from D & D
Food wasnt that awesome as expected
Atmosphere was shit as from AJ
But we all have great funxD
Oh but before that some*drum roll
Foreshadowing of the Island of No Return for the Army guys

Hell Yeah!Welcome to hell as some would have it!

Happy Parents who are Oblivious to the fate that awaits their sons! Wahahaha LOL

THE ISLAND! WE ARE HAPPY AND SUNNY AND WE HAVE NICE BEACHES! NS IS FUN!xDD

PROM location. Hm...

With the pro-MH Taiwanese and a good fren

With the drinker Yan Hao=)

With the noobs! The self-proclaimed ambassador of morality AMK lol And newb Kai peng

Jon leo here=)

With RJ! Coincidentally i thought this was the pic i look the best=X

Shivvy Boy! Back in India now. we will all miss him=(

OMG WTF ASFAR?!

The 03 gathering...or whats left of 03 that is=(

Kang Chong Selected For prom king.ROFL

LALA here the sleepy one and the small-eyed one=X

Jac here! Cudnt recognise her really!=)

Bryan here! Almost the same dress as me and i thought i could be unique>_>

Hui Long with most of the pics i have here=)

Kathy and me for the *cough Couple photos

THERE is MORE! But sophie and yi jia haven pop over with thiers=((((

Stay tuned then for more randomness

Bennie out=)

2008-12-06T07:51:00.000-08:00

hooray we are still drawing 0-0 at half time to a team that has never kept a clean sheet for 2 years!
OMG Liverpool is really shite heh
Come on! SCORE!
Dun noe whats with liverpool at this moment though
They got all the quality in the world but just no bite in the final 3rd

Still waiting for my other set of pics from sophie and yi jia for D &D..
*whistles

P.S We wonXD Take that manchester and chelski fans We are still top*whistles

2008-11-29T00:50:00.000-08:00

Some of my jobs application are "in process" mode
God knows what they mean
Damn im really impatient for a job
Doing nothing sickens me man

Anyway here are some random picsxD

My new guitar if you consider 4 weeks old as new that is
But im really pleased with it=)
Steel strings are awesome

Random positions of my dog sleeping
He really loves sleeping
And i noticed that he sleeps in alot of different ways
Maybe over the next few days i can show you guys more
Though he doesnt like the flash
When i photographed him while hes asleep
The flash will awake me
And he will give me "A WTF is this"Face
Lol i found it funny
Then he just goes back to sleep in a different place and posture

So nothing else to report in boring saturday
Elsewhere things are heating up
And literally its heating right now in my room
Like in India, goddamn terrorists again
Like in Africa, Poverty and hunger and civil strife
All around the world, people live in inhumane conditions
All around the world, endangered animals are being hunted
All around the world, vegetation is being wiped out
What is my boredom compared to these greater scheme of things?
Who am i to complain?
Man i should be glad that i have a laptop
Maybe there should be some machine to spread out pain and suffering and hardwork
So that people like me who have nothing to do can at least contribute by sharing the burden of the less fortunate
Seems like a whim of fantasy though=(

Bennie out=~

2008-11-27T23:04:00.000-08:00

THE END!
Or is it?

While i might have rejoiced and cheered in the era of THE END say a couple of months ago
I realise there is nothing much to cheer about
For it signals the end of something we have all been doing for a very long time
Studying
And it brings to highlight the fact that other then studying, im not very good at anything else
Looking at all the job requirements
Proficient at MS Office? Nope
Excellent Customer Service? Im not too sure about this
Adminstrative Experience?Nope

It almost seems that the past 12 years spent studying is as good as for naught
Like that data entry job needs you to know about phospohrous oxide and it's reactions
Of course some people might attribute these jobs that needs no academic effort as low class and thus not of their caliber
But we are all stuck with these"low-class" jobs for now
Cus A levels mean shit to the employers

So i can only apply to certain jobs instead of everything which i was led to believe by academic overlords
They might as well have tell you to signed a contract after the O levels
Which 1 of the clause would have stated
"If you are not confident of getting in a decent course for University, You're royally screwed"
Might as well get on the street and learn some practical skills like freaking MS Office
And also inherit a Glib tounge and a talent for human management skills
Which brings me to the point
Education should also do more to teach the humanities aspect of life
And i don;t really mean history Geography
I mean Management skills
Like put you at the head of a ficticious company and then leave you to helm it
Give you a good sense of what is gonna happen in your next few years
Instead of trying to conjure a false sense of security by persuading you that mugging and scoring well=opportunities

But oh well everything is a rant
Im sure some will find a flaw in my arguement
They always do
Cus i wish i had more knowledge and wisdom
That cannot be learned in the classroom
But only in the outside world

And now im lying on my ass doing nothing
Cheers=)

2008-11-10T00:48:00.000-08:00

After the rather dismal showing today for physics paper 2
Its time to inject myself with some OPTIMISM!
LOL

Anyway(apparently too much free time on my hands)
I calculated the possible marks for physics with a hell lot of assumptions!
Ready here we go.
Spa-20%
Written-80%
Now i assume that each of paper 1,2,3 has equal weightage
And thus the total comes to 180 marks.
As for Spa, we will assume everyone got at least a B.Which is like 12/20.Very possible!
Now Lets see
Paper 3 was quite easy so lets takethat you got 60/80!
Paper 2 was a disaster but if you keep your head clear you should still do well
For the average person 42/60(im looking at the 30s range for me sadly...)
Paper 1 is unknown but past years mcq has always been decent
So take 30/40

Now thats a total of 30+42+60=132/180
80% of this will be 132/18 x 8=59
59+12 from spa =71!
Which is an A if you think about it assuming 70 is the cut off for A
I told you that there is alot of assumptions

Arghs im somehow looking for a B here now. But i do harbour the hope that a scrappy A is possible(man i cant freaking spell this)
As long as there are still papers to take, there is still hope!
So keep fighting on Miracles happen!

Bennie out=)

2008-11-07T23:06:00.001-08:00

Okie so the first week pass without too much of a problem
Perharps Chemistry is slightly worrying
But there is still always paper 2 and 1
Which i wan to say to those who screwed up their paper 3 dats there is still paper 1 n 2.

But now the greatest test is still have to come
And that is history.
Seriously
I think after maths, History would be the one worrying me the most
Because in my bid to mug like mad for the 3 H2 subjects And turn a U to a decent grade
I apparently have forgotten History and its coming to bite me in the ass
Suddenly history looks like the hardest topic in the world
Its like Gp but - the freedom to write about anything
You are supposed to know all the content and then use them to interpret the question
And that where im horrible at
Interpert the question
Arghs

I Seriously cant wait for the end of this week

Bennie out=(

2008-11-01T09:58:00.000-07:00

Despite knowing more den i did before the prelims,

I feel way way less confident about the A levels

I almost feel i cant do gp history anymore

And i forgot how to do my maths again

And my physics is crap now

It just amazing how all of these things can be forgotten

But really im passed the point of no return

I managed to recover some of my knowledge the last few days

My engine seems to have reignited

But perharps too little too late no?

Now i must steel myself for the onslaught

I have identified careless mistakes as to be my downfall

As long as i can avoid making too much, i will have a chance

And hell im actually more worried abt GP den anything else

I just suddenly feel like i cant think of points animore

For now its the calm before the storm

And hopefully i will be still be left standing after the tempest

Really nothing much more i can do now but prey for luck

And good luck for everyone else

I guess you guys all worked very hard and shud deserve something good

Me? I shud have started mugging from day 1

Kinda regret now but too late to cry over spilled milk

Come on myself. Go forth and own or sth

Bennie out~~

If you see me update the next few days den all is well in the world

If not, den u noe wad happened

2008-10-24T21:16:00.000-07:00

Its really hard to imagine the A levels being roughly 1 week later
And my engines seem to be failing at the wrong time
All my flu is coming back to torment me
And it make it next to impossible to study effectively
And last week became near complete waste becus of the frequent school trips
The school trips completely drain me physically
I just fall asleep the moment i reach home
And when i wake up i get a very bad headache
Luckily the last week do not have to be spent in school
There is still time but there is always this irritating feeling i mite have missed out on some content
Jus wish the A lvls was freaking tmr and den i can get this paranoia thing over with

On a side note Im feeling kinda lonely all of a sudden
More like the i wish i have a girlfren kind of mood
Which is kinda distracting
And it didnt help the last few nights im been dreaming of her
So what is my mind telling me?
Panic Attacks? Or becus im lapsing into insanity lol?
Oh well..Time will tell

Bennie out=~

2008-10-18T09:19:00.000-07:00

Again My dear Liverpool loves to give me a heart attack
They played extremely poorly in the 1st half and deserve to be behind
But they never gave up and what was the end result?
They won.

They also won in similiar style just 2 weeks ago against man city
Winning against the odds and the same score line to boot

So what does this all say?
We should never surrender and give up
As long as there is still time
We must keep on fighting
And i hope everyone will keep on fighting towards the As
Because we never know when a miracle will come.

Bennie out-)

P.S Go pawn chealsea now but just dun do it in the dying minutes again=(

2008-10-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

Just noticed that my heading at the top is horribly outdated.
The prelims is like over weeks ago lol

The last official day in school was great
Lots of fun
A steamboat that actually left me hungry(amazing)
Cus the fish there is so awesome. It taste heavenly!
Den we went over to the Arcade and played some shooters
Fun too except for the fact the machines there are ridiculously hard and engineered to make you feed to them

Now we all near the final phase of our college education;THE A LEVELS!
Honestly i cant wait for it to be over
There is too much pressure in silent anticipation
Too much worries about unforseen questions
But i got my revision up and running
peppered with some perfect world for 2 hrs every day

Now my dear blog reader,
To quote the final line in the movie "Wanted"
What the hell(meant to be another word but i self censor it har) have you done lately?

Good luck for your A LVls!
See you guys for the chalets!

2008-09-26T02:18:00.000-07:00

Im lazy to type lol so let pictures do the talking right?

Miss Goh's Baby. Quite cute (for now until the whining and crying comes full force)
Feels good to witness life from the very start when we were all these innocent and pure beings
Untainted by desires and free of anger,sorrow and fear

Something i took from the sky garden
This picture just doesnt do justice to the majestic scenery i wish to capture
Reminder to myself:Buy a uber camera with like 20000 megapixel
We were in suntec to celebrate hui min bdae=)
We went to eat at some restaurant and hui min found a worm inside her soup albeit a dead one
Lol she just very calmly told the waiter to come over and just tell him about it
The waiter was like dumbfounded-kept apologising despite hui min saying its okie
Later the restaturant gave her a free ice cream=)
Den i found out that we have a bunch of alcholics in guitar!
They were swarming all over the wine and beer section in cold storage or ntuc or wadever it is
They bought some white beer or wine thingy and i tasted it
Lol results were bad i just dun like wine or beer
Too bitter for me
Cant imagine how ppl enjoyed it
I will stick to my orange juice thank you very much=)

Something i took at the sky garden
Quite beautiful didnt know such a place exist lol
Its really romantic and quiet
Reminder to myself: a good place to bring my girlfren to=)

Working at the F1 photograhy seminar with my friends
This is the top floor of the National Library
Incredible view-Again my camera could not capture the breath-taking view that assault my senses from all direction
So i didint take it

Some more photos=)

The white strip is the F1 track!

The kind usherer helps me take a photo! thanks haha

FOOD! O GLORIOUS FOOD!

Hui Li Bdae! Happy Bdae! Dun feel so down about the history marks right?!

Bennie out=)

2008-09-11T05:13:00.000-07:00

HAPPY Belated Bdae to 'Chilli Chan' also known as Jose=)
So sorry didnt see until i notice the tagged email reminding its your bdae!
Good luck for ur prelims!

And also
Happy Bdae to Virnice!
Wish you luck for the comin exams and also any track events haha

Dat said its time to move onto what i thought was quite nice to happen
It may be a sign on my luck changing haha
About 2 months ago i borrowed a certain statistic book and absent mindedly slotted the class photo into the book
And unknowingly return it
And now 2 months ltr went to borrow a stats book for tmr and lo and behold
while im flipping through the pages
I found the class photos still in it!'
Omg it sure makes me smile
Oh ya and physics paper makes me happy=)
Im confident i will pass physics=)
Good luck for all
Cus we are more den halfway thru come tommorrow

Oh ya haven been watching movies again from the movie site
Wall-E is a really nice show
The Wall-E is so darn cute
I love the way he act when hes all afraid and boy he is always afraid!
Plus he makes really cute voices esp when he call Eva
The cockroach is damn cute too
Cant believe im saying that
But really you love the cockroach in that movie
Also another great film for the medieval people is Dragonheart
Its quite an 1980s film but the plot and actors and the humor is amazingly welldone
Beats most movies nowsaday
Lastly, i also recommend the movie Taken which is about a ex-spy dad going all out to save her very daughter
Amazing show
It was so long since i last saw a thriller without over the top explosion, gadgets and CGI
This flim is pure down to earth and is actually quite believable
Acting is awesome too
Too bad it will probably not show here as it is a french directed flim=(

Aniwae good luck for maths!

Bennie out=)_

2008-09-05T04:58:00.000-07:00

Okie i take yst post back...

I tried to do calculus and i just keep getting owned
=(
Its so hard that its not funny
And the freezing library did wonders at raising my fustration levels
I just have a very bad feeling all of a sudden
That im going to fail maths..again
I calculated le i can lose 60 marks from the 200 marks paper for an A!
But 60 marks is very little..
And i be really happy to pass!
Unless i can get my act together
I probably screw up again
And this is assuming my chemistry n physics is adequately prepared
Omg i feel stupid of a sudden
It feels like its too much too late

Wish i had start earlier=((
I tink i better start considering alternative career plans..

Bennie out=((((

2008-09-04T03:29:00.000-07:00

Yea New blogskin!
Coupled with an awesome song that is the main inspiration behind this wonderfully done skin=)

Still studying though
But its nt really such a torture it was
Man Its actually quite fun!
Having fun with vectors right now
Thank god i still rmbed like 80 % of my techniques including the shamelessly patent by me method of the triangle=)
Still haven encountered THE CALCULUS
And i dun really look forward to that stupid topic
But yea i feel ready
Bring it on Aj=))

Gogo Red MEN. Beat the shit out of the Mancs!

Bennie out=)

2008-08-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

Finally updated!

Happy Bdae to Fir Fir!
Even though he will never see it but oh well
Happy bdae!
Nice guy really kind of miss him man.=(

There have been frightening developments occuring this last few weeks
Apparently things are way more complicated then i have imagined
This is really scary
Damn why cant ppl be more simple minded and stuff
Whats with all the conspiracy?!
It makes me giddy=(

Bennie outO.o

2008-08-15T05:16:00.000-07:00

SINGAPORE won a MEDAL!!!!
OMG!
Im officially proud of being in such a momentous event !

The table tennis match between Singapore and korea was simply thrilling
Time just simply flew past as the match took 4 hours but i thought i only watch it for like 1 hour
But what really excited and amazed me was the community and patriotic spirit put up by my classmates and probably like 200+ other students who took part in the match by cheering every victory and mourning every loss
I feel as if i was there itself
Its probably the first time i was so engulfed in such an environment
Where all eyes were fixed on the tv screen in the canteen
Silently waiting ready to leap and cheer when the point goes into our favour
It doesnt feel like AJC for a moment
It feels like we are at a pub as if we are watching premier league deciding match
My heart was pumping so precariously everytime i see the singaporean players on the verge of losing the plot and then handing the final berth to the koreans
Granted the koreans played very very well
When it seems that the singaporean player has put it away for good
Somehow the korean were able to conjure up a chop that miraculously keep the ball in play
It was as if they were empowered by some higher power
It almost seem impossible to defeat them
But they are after all still human as they still did careless mistakes
I feel abit for that last korean player
She look so sad and distraught

Aniwae congrats Team singapore
You have all created history!
And im happy to be part of it!=)

Bennie out=))

2008-08-13T06:58:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BDAE to CHARLENE!=)
For being such a great fren and suppporting me in outings!

iiiii

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Lol a noob attempt at a birthday cake haha

Other then that, there really nothing to update about=)

2008-08-08T07:47:00.000-07:00

KATHY SINGS VERY WELL!

We had Guitar Outing at Kbox just now!
But still waiting for the photos from sophie haha
Den can update the post with pics!

Aniwae i was watching the intro to Beijing Olympics
Impressive stuff though some thought came to my mind that make me grin
When Vadimir Putin stood up to wave to the Russian Federation Contigent
He must have felt funny cause here he was in a rather successful communist country
And he will probably be reminded of the Soviet Union own failing
And did you notice Syria, a country branded under the Axis of Evil, is walking right in front of the USA contigent?
Its almost amazing i think cus what make me smile was that sports has the power to unite enemies and unite the whole of humanity
Human's aggression can now be vented in a peaceful mannaer in the form of sports
Isnt that awesome?

Will update when pics come!

2008-08-07T08:02:00.000-07:00

I feel quite distraughted with my psp
Which is rotting due to me neglecting to care for it
Plus it runs out of battery at an astronomical speed..
And plus i cant get it to run my footy game
So im guessing this is it
Im gng to retire my psp after 4 years of faithful service
I think the circuitry inside is pretty screwed up
So maybe its time to move on
Like severing the links to the past
Im thinking of whether i shud get another 1
But i probably wun since i have strangely really lost the sense of playing video games
It is as if they dun really excite me as they do in the past anymore
I dunnoe why the transformation
But oh well
R.I.P dear psp
For having stick with me thru thick and thing
And me dropping you on the floor over and over again

=(

2008-08-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

This post shall be dedicated to my dog and all pets in general.

I must say admidst the windy night breeze
That thoughts flood my very soul
When my hands ran through and again on the black shiny coat of my dog
A suudden intrusion into my mind
A painting of sorrow that awaits me
When judgement brings him away from my arms
And into the embrace of the Lord
I cried not for his inevitable destiny that is set in stone
But for the freedom that liberates him
For the same joy and gratitude that lies in those sparkling eyes
Lies a second plane of sadness and regret
Sadness for he shall miss me and all the joys of the sheltered world
Regret for the life he could have led if he was not in captivity
To race across the plains
To see the sunrise in her full glory
To find a soul mate
To see a new generation that carries his genes
All that lost for a choiceless life
One that is easy, safe
But ultimately unrewarding
For as long as he curls his body against me
And look at me with glimmering eyes
My guilt can never perish
For i took his soul without consent
And for my own personal desires
And how can i forget
That i never really compensented his love with mine
To leave him lying in the dark treacherous home
Waiting with abated breath for me
But I never answering his enthusiasm
And now am I
Lying right beside him
Knowing that his time is near
That his warmth may no longer grace the world again
That the world will not miss but me alone
And i think of the solitary that he leads most of the time
And the solitary that will soon befall me
Alas Its not too late
For its never too late to love to care
And for all this
I shall love wholeheartedly
Like i would do a lover
Like i do a dear friend
And so when the days turn dark
I know i will always have a beloved companion
One who i will always always keep in my heart
Soon The end will come
But i know he shall return to the land of bliss
Where he will forever be running beyond the confines of today
And i know my heart will always be with him

And for all those who have been neglecting your pets
Please give them your due
For we owe them way too much

Bennie out=(

2008-08-02T23:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Belated BDAE to CHOO MIN
Hope you stay cute n blur forever=)

Haven found anything noteworthy to blog about cus school days are starting to look like this
Skip/stone lectures or tutorials
Study in the mph/Reading room
And more study
Lunch
Study
Study
Home
Sleep

LOL not very exciting right?
Despite all these studies im still bothered that i might miss out on something
Plus i stilll dun have the sense of security
I have to rethink my gp writing style so that i dun end up running of time after 1 or 2 points
Have to write a few more history essays to make sure i got the concept
Make some notes for physics
Do MORe Chem n Maths
Alot of things to do in the space of 1 week
And im progressing real slow

Gloom seems to have descended in the class again
Which is really strange cus there is no advantage in staying angry and sad
And sometimes these feelings are aroused by silly things
Man..
Is being emo dat fun after all?
Oh well i rather not think about it too
Dats why my mp3 player has very little songs that are sadness related
Cus the era of sadness for me is over
No point being sad again hor

Bennie out=)

2008-07-24T05:44:00.000-07:00

Just got back from vocational assessment from NDU
My opinion of the diving unit really changed
I actually am genuinely interested in joining it
I told the interviewer that i do not mind joining despite the fact that i cant swim
Cus i really feel like i can be part of that unit
Granted the training is going to be much tougher
But the environment i see that sastifys me
Aniwae all army trainings would be hard anyway
But the main drawing point seems to be its dynamic nature
Where you can do like alot of different stuff each day
Though what stuff remains to be seen
And plus it infinitelyy less regimental than the normal infantry unit
Not once did i see the recruits/ regulars get shouted at by their officers
Plus the officers there are not as elitist
Of course it can all just part of a show
But then as wallace said
No point putting a show just to trick us in

But god always love to deal the irony hand
Just when i interested in joining
Im not qualified to join cus i have a history of asthma and my left ear is not as good as my right(lol)
Its really sad cus the people who are came for va
I really think they will make awesome mates
I tink they are real funny
And just as im getting to know them better
we have to part..
=(
And i forgot to take a grp photo...
Now my heart just drips with regret
haiz..

bennie out=(

2008-07-21T07:19:00.000-07:00

Okie things have settled down. Now we are all back to tutorials and stuff.
But the next few weeks will either break or make me as Vincent Goh said
Its really scary.
There this optimistic side of me who says that yes its my time to shine baby
Then there this dreadful side that thinks it is a lost cause
I actually felt confident for maths for the 1st time in my jc life after finally understanding vectors
Of cause there is still statistics
But there is the least of my worries now
There still my weak chemistry and physics and history
Also i have to find out wads the secrets of writing a good gp essay
Haiz 5 more weeks to prelims
Coming all too fast now that im finally motivated

Still haven thought what university course im gonna take
Wish life was more simpler
Maybe i can live out my life in a small little hut by the beach side
And put all my burdens behind..

Bennie out=~~

2008-07-13T02:06:00.000-07:00

Okie got back all my results and they ain't great
Only helps reinforce the belief dat i suck really badly at studies(and did i even spell reinforce correctly?)
Fail almost everything which is really sad becus i did some preparations for the tests
And the test i didnt prepare for pass and all the tests dat i did some work on failed..
Sometimes i know that the questions are simply a more tedious and challenging form of the basic theory and stuff
But my mind always either blank out when seeing a what looks like a tough and impossible question
Or i spend too much time reading the question thinking that there is some hidden trapdoor to lure unsuspecting students in
I really feel sad and helpless
So i tried doing the prelim papers
And really the working required is so tedious dat my mind locks up and i start making careless mistake
Calculus is the main culprit
Cant the examiners set something less tedious and actually grades u on the grasp on the topic
Den setting a super tedious question and capitalising on your 1 single mistake?
Its really sickening
Dats y i love arts better, it allows (nearly)free expression
And maybe dats y i love gp, history
Though u have to tink more but at least there are no cheap traps and tricks to get you
I feel liek a failure..
I cant do even half od the questions on maths paper..
I wonder how am i gng to do well for a lvls and even get into uni?
Its af if the world burden is on my shoulders
How am i gng to face my mum if i screw up everything..
She put like so much hope on me but i just cant deliver
Its just this sinking feeling i dun like
I wan to do something about it but every question dat i cant do
The more i get disenchanted
I dunnoe but the future really looks bleak to me
And den i have to go for National Diving unit vocational test
Just wow..I said on the form i cant swim i dun like the ocean
And i still got selected
Do those ppl actually looks at wad i want?
It just doesnt help
Diffusing mines underwater and spnding half of my time in water isnt what i desire
Man all the bad things have to come together dun they?

Well at least guitar farewell was great!
I got a cute little candy machine
Really a big thanks to the juniors even though i dun noe any of them=)
At least a smile to an otherwise miserable face

The clock is indeed ticking
Lets hope that this darkness is the darkest darkness for im all ready for the brightess dawn that comes after

Bennie out~~

2008-07-02T04:21:00.000-07:00

Been quite a rollercoaster ride this few weeks.
Mostly due to the exams last week and the dreadfulness dat foloed into this week

So far i have only got back GP and Chemistry.
Maths is a sure lost cause as queky confirm my indepensible role in his remedial lessons
Physics turn out to be so hard that i no longer place any good hope on it.

But at least 1 good news..i gt A for GP!!!
OMG
How is dat possible?!
Which everyone says
And im also still spinning with the euphoria dat i actually scored a A in the untouchable subject!
Somehow though i have the nagging feeling this is just a fluke
But i nevertheless am happy for my first A in my jc life!
Hope there will be more to come!
Gt an E for chem which is kind of expected cus i wasnt really prepared
(the night before i was watching television!)
So its really my fault haha
And during the chem exams i was so panicky dat i actually shaded option E on the OAS

So what other news do i bring?
Really none..sadly..life is starting to disintegrate into mugging n more mugging
But not like i mind
I actually enjoy it
Cus i know this could be my finest hour and could also break me if im not careful
So yeah let this year be the year to be rmbed!

2008-06-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

oh i just did my chemistry test
It was horrid quite possibly the most distressing paper for me
For the 1st time i was so stressed that i actually shaded option E
like man wth!
i knew i was gng to run out of time when i used 20 mins for the 1st 10 questions
But i didnt expext time to go so FAST!
And plus i feel really sad getting tricked by the benzene ring again
man..i cant even freaking balance ammonia
i just feel like a terrible noob

Its a feeling i hope that i will not relive again tmr for physics and history

Bennie out=(((

2008-06-22T05:48:00.000-07:00

Hello guys
This is me typing from my lappy haha
it came prematurely which is not great cus tmr is the exams.
Jus saying hello haha'

Oh ya and im doomed for the exams doomed!
I tried to study maths but it just ended up in me getting depressed
Why on earth is maths so HARD!

Bennie out=)

2008-06-18T19:02:00.000-07:00

Happy Bdae to Jasmine!

Our og photo haha

We went to pine tree club for jas bdae
Wow shes a rich gal haha
I initally thought it was some kind of pub or something but it turned out to be a club
It was pretty cool cause the service personel there was like professional lol
Makes you feel as if you are someone important

I skip the boring parts..

Den we had buffet!
Eng seng was probably the most happiest man at dat moment
Cus he like mega hungry
Probably skip his bfast and lunch just for this
The food was quite awesome
Gt salmon, big sausage(as i called it), the baked potato thingy ice cream
Ah im lazy to type update this when i get my lappy

bennie out=)

2008-06-14T06:14:00.000-07:00

I just came back from the IT fair in suntec!
Guess what im typing this post while my screen is flickering
So pardon me for carelss mistakes cus i cant really see wad im typing
Also i wun be blogging for at least 2 weeks cus
My new lappy wun be arrving in 2 weeks time

Dats right a LAPPY!=))))

I bought 1 decent 1 by kp standard for 1.3k haHa
Even though it is dwarfed by the other coms in terms of spec and chioness
It just completely pwned my desktop com
Man it has 3 GB RAM!!
OMG
Mine is like only 512 mb ram
I cant imagine my com being dat fast haha
But the main purpose of buying a lappy is so dat my bro doesnt monopolise com usage foer this com is jointly shared
And more often den not dat bugger will plant himself right in front for the rest of the day
So i cant even use atall
I hope with a lappy
I can have some personal space
But irony is that
I still ended up offering to share my lappy with him
Cus this screen will probably flicker indefintiely
And my mum is worried dat the bugger wun have any com to use
But at least now the usage of my new lappy is now on my terms which include
NO USAGE of com during peak periods (these hours will be Xclusively MINE)
He is restricted to 4 hrs every day during non peak periods
ALL damages to my lappy will not be held responsible by me
150gb of the hard drive will be for me 100gb will be for him
Haha it feels good to be tyrannical at times
Actually it will be all mine if not the sake of my mum

He should count his lucky stars!

Aniwae im signing off! Cant wait for my new laptop~!!

Bennie out=)))

2008-06-13T06:03:00.000-07:00

Man it takes a 30 mins battle just to get this com working
My com screen always flicker
But today i think i mite have found out the cause of the flickers
The cable is probably damaged
Oh well

I joined the Straits time contest to name 3 songs from this local band
I feel abit bad dat i google their official site and just spit out the song names
But i stand a chance to win a Les Paul!!!
So everything decent goes out of the window
I hope i will win!!!

Just want to note down a dream i had yesterday
Im quite a big fan of dreams
I think they are really special way to remind you of things that you might have forgotten
Like yesterday i dreamed i was searching for my childhood crush
I just drove around in my car while looking at the GPS her location(Wow GPS can track lol)
Even though i didnt get to find her, i was almost at her location le
But probably becus i dun have any idea what she looks like now
I just woke up
She has always remain as my greatest regret
I just hate myself for not bringing up enough courage to talk to her
I once told blog gal dat one day we will find her together
But apparently i never put that plan in motion
Maybe dat dream is to wake me up
Go find her
At least thank her for the bdae present she gives me every year w/o fail from p1 to p6
Thing is dat i dun even have her number or address or even what she look like
I can only rmb her as a girl with ponytails
There all i rmb..
I still have 1 of her bdae cards
Its rotten now but i can still feel the emotions radiating from the blue ink..
So i say we should just be brave to confess love or else we just live a life of regrets

I really hope 1 day i can find her..

Bennie out=)

2008-06-11T05:02:00.000-07:00

Okie its officially hard to start studying again
After a really slack week i find it amazingly hard to restart engine
I spend today sleeping haha
Aniwae i just heard Fallout Boy Rendition of Beat It
Sounds horrible=(
If it is a new song den maybe its decent
But when u compared to the original
Well...there is no competition really
The drums are really bad
And the lead up to the solo is indescribably poor
Soory FoB fans but i wish i didnt hear it lols

Aniwae aside from the music thing i must complete the maths revision by tonite!
Cus i have already marked on the calander le and if i still cant do it
Den im gng to be behind schedule!
Man suddenly time seems to FLY!

Yst we had a class outing at Suki!
Didnt take any pics except for this haha which ka leong took be4 the manager took away all of our plates=(

Haha we sure demolish the sushis
But after a while we got bored cus the sushi all look the same..
SAD=(
I actually left w/o feeling full for the 1st time for a buffet
Its pretty cool though maybe we shud get premium next tym den we got more choices haha
I just see the tako yakis float past me cus its nt included=(
I hope everyone had some fun!
But i tink i still hav much to learn as organiser=(
Maybe like being more creative and think of interesting stuff
I dun mind some advice=)

Just uploaded from my phone haha
Kathy and me lols
Actually i still dun see how we look the same despite wad hui min and sophie have been telling me
Haha and plus i tink i look horrible
Ghastly pale
Ew like a ghost lol
It was quite cold on dat day

Aniwae back to studying i hope and not playing lols
bennie out=)

2008-06-09T19:24:00.000-07:00

Woots back from NS checkup(actually dats yst) and
not so woots to dying in maple due to a lack of pots and wasting 40 mins of my life(i hate it now)

Im pes A haha what a great surprise lol
I tot my heartbeat was the irregular de
To measure heartbeat, they stick this wierd suction cups to my chest
I tot they were bells when i 1st saw them
And the clips they use for ur hands and legs look more like toys
My height n weight stayed de same

Another station i tot i will screw up was the ENT station lol
Cus i have lot of exposure to LOUD music
So i tot i will end hearing silence during the hearing test
Haha but i did well wahaha

Dental was quite funny
They wanted me to bite on to this thingy while they did an x-ray of my jaw
Den one of the guys den pointed to the x-ray
And den he ask the doctor"wad is this?"
I tot im in trouble
Den the doctor said oh thats a growing teeth haha
He said it is rare for ppl of my age to be still growing teeth=)

Den we have the blood test
I thought it will hurt alot
And it really did so when the guy took out his needle
Its look long and rather thick
luckily it didnt hurt=)

Haha and so was it
Im a healthy person!

Bennie out=)

2008-06-06T03:27:00.000-07:00

New SongxD
I tink its mega nice=)
Classic old songs ftw!

On with revision i say

Guitar SL is finally over!
But i wish i have pictures
Words fail to describe SL where pictures would fit the descriptions perfectly

Wad else?

Oh monday im having NS checkup

Reminder to pae de peeps:Tuesday -Meet at KFC beside mosque for SUKI sushii goodness=) 1.30 pm!goodness=)

Bennie outX_X(i love studying..i really do=X)

2008-06-03T07:09:00.000-07:00

Happy belated bdae to azri!

Actually the 1st week of holidaes were passed quite well
At least i didnt treat it like the other holidaes
At least i made attempts to study though the sleepy demon is always stronger
LOL
But despite having made preparations
I was just owned flat by real papers
i can do the tutorials but faced with test questiond my mind just fall apart
Hm i really hope i can do well in the midyear for it can give me a
great morale boost after failing and failing..
Maybe like a B for all my h2 except for maths where a C i wud be happy
Den i can use it as a stepping stone to greater things
haha

I spent my time last night watching Singapore Vs Uzbek
I switched off at half time
I knew the game was already over
I applaud their dogginess really
I was really thrilled when they fought back 2 times
And they really make the effort to bring the game to the uzbeks
But the way their defence fell apart is really upsetting
Its like man the defense is horrible!And they conceded way too much soft goals
Granted they were fighting a team that is like 60 over places above them in ranking but still
Raddy shud be worried abt his defence
I tink their offence is good
Esp shi
Dat guy has REAL potential

A day before that i was out on maple guild outing to east coast
It was quite fun haha even though spammer shawn wasnt there (thankfully)
Its abit sad that i have to go early but i tink it is really great fun
Though i didnt see the event
haha

Back to studying
Cheers

Bennie out=)

2008-05-24T19:10:00.000-07:00

A lot of things have happened over the last few days
Like for example class outing on thursday
And before that the GP test
Missing my last train
And stuff like that lol
Choir concert and more
Seems like a whirlwind of different events have been pillaging through
And whenever i sit here trying to recall these happenings
My mind will fail me
Sometimes i wish there is some microchip in your brain that can record your thoughts for future remembrances
Well minus the dirty stuff that comes sometimes;P

Okie so i finished reading 'Omega'
And again i find it an enriching book
I dun noe if its me but i do sense a lot of undertones beneath the text
Like the author is expressing his belief behind the veiled words
I like books that make you think=)
Though rushing thru like 300 pages in 1 day is 1 experience i dun want to repeat

Den we got our gp exam
I took a risk with the question about 'words'
Somehow i didnt come away being sastified with my work
It is as if something key is lacking
Oh well i was trying something new anyway
See what happens though chances are i will screw up
Hm but i find compre to be quite fun which everyone else find quite the contary
Strange lol

Den we have our outing at erm marina square
I tot i was late but apparently not!
Everyone else was so late i cud have slept at home for 1 more hour and still arrive early
Talking about sleeping i slept 17 hours yesterday and thus awake for 7 hours only
Talk about a sleepyhead
I was in lala land roughly 2.5 times more then im awake
Looks like i love sleep so much
And this could pose a serious problem to my revision plans

Den we ate at erm yaki yuki or wadever its called
Great fun though i still haven change my opinion of buffets
Before eating my stomuch would be like growling and ready to pounce on the food
Midway i wish i just ate a plate of chicken rice
Cus my stomuch seems to lock up at buffet..
I can hardly eat anything
While beasts like melvrick, yi yao shamm keep eating and eating and eating
Though its kind of funny that some of them end up struggling to eat finish
As a sign warned that every 100g of wastage is $5
I also discovered dat steven gerard isnt the nice boy that we thought he is=)

Den we went to the arcade to play
I still suck at pool and got completely thrashed by fairuz
Den i went over to the para para machine and got freaking 0%!
I mean like im such a NOOB!
Den i went on to play the plane simulator thingy game with mel
Den i died so early
Again..im such a NOOB
The only consolation is that i got first for daytona courtesy of a accident between melboy and fairus
Den i ran for the last train
And when melvrick told me hey the last train in 5 mins time
I knew i was in deep trouble cus i have to run the whole of marina square the whole of city link in 5 mins
And it didnt help my morale when there city link was completely empty
The shops were closed
And it certainly didnt help that my imagination was running wild
Somehow i imagine zombies crawling out from all the dark corners..ew
Den i missed the last train arghs

Den me ttm bryan and huilong ended up walking the streets
We all gathered near the esplanade
Where we can see the river or sea
Looks really serene there would have been a great place to sleep if not for the IR construction works
Den we took bryan dad's car home(thanks)
Home sweet home=)

At azri request,
1)At what age do you wish to propose?
It comes naturally i guess..maybe when i get a stable job and have charted my life.erm 20+?

2) Who is more important to you?
Everyone is important even animals

3) Who is the person you don't trust most?
This im not sure..Sid?

4) ARE U CONFIDENT?
Maybe but its best not to or else you get too cocky..

5) If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
Turn back time to my primany 1 days and set things right all from the start

6) who are the people whom you like to hang out with?
Everyone i really dun mind..

7) who do you enjoy going out with?
the closest buddies.

8) WHAT IS LOVE??
A sense of longing for someone as if you wished you could see her everyday from a distant window and smile whenever she meets a good turn and tear whenever she get hurts

9) What is like?
A welcoming aura as if you feel safe around that person

10) if you have a gf, when do you like her most? for example is it kissing, hugging and sentra
Chatting looking each other in the eye and just really being together is the best blessings ever

11) which country would you intend to go to next?
Japan! i wan to see some kawaiiness!

12) What if you saw your girlfriend on a date with another guy?
Jesus Christ! Den shes not my gf if she does dat unless they are out solely on a frenship basis

13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
Yes indeed but i feel im not doing enough

14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
To live life happily and as a saying goes to make others happy

15) what is your favourite word to use?
noob!

16) what do you do when you are bored?
Sleep=)

17) WHICH PART OF THE PAST YOU WANT TO LET IT COME AGAIN??
Every Single day where i can make a difference

18) do you love your gf?
Yes in the very past and all is past now.

19) What do you wish for now?
That humanity can live in peace..stop all those dumb jihads or wadever

20) What do you want to be when you grow up?
I never really thought of this..i still dun have any idea haha

Bennie=) out( why on earth is there so many lovey-dovey questions?)

2008-05-14T05:26:00.000-07:00

So im penniless once more sadly..
After blowing it on long john silver, im starting to feel abit sad
and regretful about my spend act
At some point last month i got $60 dollars all saved up..
Im not sure what was it going to be used for
but its still feels good to have some back up cash
Unfortunately i left my spending unchecked
And it left me in this really pitiful situation
I still ned to buy a tie
And i have no money to do so now..
There is only 5 days left to save up $$ to tide over my holidays
Since i DO NOT get any holiday allowance
omg seriously from now on i shud participate less in outings
cus unlike my frens
I do not have the financial means to continue to splurge
I do not have NETS, i get no access to my bank account or piggy bank
i only have my $10 dollar a day salary and
furthermore, i try to as great an extent as possible not to use my mom money
to buy stuff like TYS stationary unless they are ridiculously expensive like D&D
I dun really know but i feel a need to curtail my spending
so dat my family has more money to play with
It will be selfish of me to force my mum to pledge fortunes to me
The fortune should be made by myself which is my beliefs
I also figured that i shud stop going to any more concerts
Cus they are really a sting on the wallet..
I have so many things i want to buy for myself
But no $$
$$ really makes the world go round doesnt it?
( And another good reason not to get a girlfren
Cus simply im pretty hard up on the $$ part unless
our union is a purely romantic 1 and not involving a hint of monetary pursues
which my fren, is impossible in this time)

Now for a miserable holiday=(

2008-05-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

I got silver for natfa!
Woots the station dat brought mi down was sit up
My sit up is really hopeless...
I dun noe how the others can actually do so much
Aniwae im really glad that i surpassed my self on every other station
2.4 km was really what surprised me
I didnt noe i had dat stamina
I just pushed myself to the limit
By the 4th lap, my stomach was completely cramped up
And all my senses pleaded with me to start walking
But i just kept telling myself i will walk the next lap
But i didnt really walk
So its kind of a physiological thingy to encourage oneself
The others did great too they also ran to their limits ba
Kudos to them
What matters is dat most of us got the required silver

I just came back from Cldds concert
Makes me glad dat i didnt stay in cldds
Cus their chinese is just WOW
With my crappy chinese i wud be kicked out so fast
Very good performance by both fei and hui long
Haha fei looks chio
Hui long acting is amazing haha

Taught guitar chords and some basic technique to the J1s!
I feel so happy when i see them able to learn the basics
It fills me full of joy
Such is a reward of a teacher=)

Bennie out=)

2008-04-26T03:37:00.000-07:00

Guitar concert is a resounding SUCCESS!
WOOTS!
T_T
All our hard WORK paid off!

OMG

When i finished the last song, i was so HIGH!!
OMG it sounded great all our songs
I was really nervous before the concert
O solo mio was actually quite fast
But the Harmo conductor thought it was nice
GJ hui qian haha

Ai hen jian dan was a very nice song or so according to wei chun
But i tink it sounded really great there!
Only annoying fact is that my leg could not stop shaking and tremblng
And my whole body probably vibrated or sth=(
OMG the anxiousness bug

Den So Nice was pretty unnerving at the start
Cus the audience were laughing like mad lar
I was like " OH NOES! Are we playing wrongly?!!"
After a while den we realise its actually the ongoing skit that is going on
Phew

After that freedom!!!
Woots i was jumping all around!
Everyone was happy!

Den after the concert fei said that im so handsome tonite!
OMG
Goes crazy!
I mean wow=)
Im happy again!
So high!
Den Qi also said the same thing!
This is really madness!
Yi yao also thinks so haha

Den we went to eat Macdonald lol
we virtually walk the whole of amk cus the Mac was actually filled with ppl
Den we have to go to another mac
We had some interesting conversations down there
Like peter Herd recycled jokes lol

We all went home and were tired
Very tired from all the HIGHNESS

LOL I wish to thank everyone who came!
Like Charlene Alvin kahou(where larry?O.o)
My class 08/07 who shouted very loud for me and kathy=)
Thanks everyone!
=)

Bennie out=)

Random pic=)He is as big as my foolscrap lol So cute

2008-04-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

AH i hate my com!!!
Just when the critical moment have come
My storm bolt have cooled down and viper was moving for the kill
The stupid anti virus notice popped out
And den my com started flickering like mad
And it keep alt tab on itself
AHHH

T.T

Just came back from guitar practice which was sastifying!
It was quite funny haha
Veron was like suggesting we shud say u--lala after we finish so nice ;p
LOL
i tink the audience wud flip haha
Kathy was like saying 'what is love" in chinese
Before we start Ai hen jian dan
LOL
and when the teacher in charge wanted me to hold the guitar at the middle of the neck
So she said ; neck neck"
Den i stupidly tot there was something on my neck collar lol
I feel so stupid after dat
no wonder kathy is laughing lols

And the teachers think so nice is well so nice!
HAppy=)
And ai hen jian dan was quite good too!
Though i tink wei chun cover my mistakes haha

ARGHS i hate my com

Bennie out=(

2008-04-15T04:53:00.000-07:00

Today the teacher raised the possibility of Dinner & Dance which is like a form of graduation dinner
Even though its really far away, my frens have started discussing it
Like some really nasty but nice gossip ;P
But more importantly, our partner to go with to the dinner..
As most of us are in the Bachelor club..We are all really worried
We all really hope we can find somebody to come along wit us and be our dance partner(even though none of us know how to dance lol)
So everyone raised a few of their options
And i realized i dun have alot of options=(
T.T
Im worried ..
Dun wanna be alone!

And im getting really frightened by concert..
Im like suddenly omg i mite have stage fright
Wad if i bring everyone down with me?!
Im so worried..
Plus there is so much hw and so many lecture tests
It driving me mad!
All i want now is to concentrate on the concert den my life will be much more relaxed once its over
I will probably celebrate once i finish 'so nice'!
Man im so frightened..

For now homework is largely invisible to me..

Bennie out=)

God damn you Rajang and black Gravious im gonna eat you for breadfast!

Hm its getting all cheery and stuff in my blog which is really a stark contrast to the past
Why is this so?

Maybe its becus im no longer searching for love
So im no longer be troubled by it
Yes i do admire couples and talks that tempt you to think that a girlfren/boyfren is great
But when such matters ultimately lead to sadness and heartbroken-ness
Why bother?
In the end, we live to be happy(at least for me)
A relationship is just another avenue for happiness
Sometime i just feel so despaired when i see my frens' relationships go out of control
I have went through the same stage and yet im unable to help them
I believe the greatest cure must come from within and no amount of counseling will do if one is not willing to climb out of the pitfall

Im still not convinced by relationships
Someone prove me wrong?

2008-04-12T06:04:00.000-07:00

Today is homecoming day!
We had some fun at there despite the rain..
Met quite alot of 2e5 ppl like irysad ,chuning kun yang wei hui
Woots!
Happy lol
Glad to see the school is still the same lol

Met chng kevin zheng xiang weicheng later
We foloed the 403 guys for a while den we went to my house
Played some guitar heroes=)

Failed to sell any of my guitar tickets though sad..
Forgot to take pics..ps

Bennie out=)

2008-04-10T19:38:00.001-07:00

NOTE: The PW results released in the last half an hour were incorrect. Our sincerest apologies for the error! The correct result is as follows:
Your result for the 2007 GCE A-LEVEL Project Work Examination: B

AJ THAnK you=-=

First u said i gt A den there is a system error

Thanks for playing with me

I love you AJ=(

I hope everyone gt better treatment then wad this bullshit school can give

2008-04-10T04:02:00.000-07:00

Tmr is the day we recieve our pw results..
Its kinda scary..
I tink im gonna spam refresh tmr at 9.59am
And den suddely refresh refresh refresh
POOF!
My results!
The butterflies r forming in my stomuch now
Though recieving it at home is kind of anti-climatic=(
Im hoping for an A but a B isnt too bad either

Hereby wishing everyone good luck for pw!

Oh ya we have this guitar rehearsal thingy with harmoc yst
And tensions were HIGH
I still dun understand why there is intense rivalry between us
Maybe its some past rivalry thingy
Or the harmoc prez piss brenda off
We share the same cca room, the same concert..
And the similarities stop at that
I can see many ppl with pissed off faces
Quite scary
And den kathy said the harmoc ppl said that those j1 guitar ppl r rude
Hm war?
Somehow it feels ironical when guitar and harmoc combined for the combined song
Its like they r trying to outduel each other!
Their harmonicas were so loud for some reason...
Everytym drown us out
Jees we shud plug in the amps and rock their world down=)
For now we shall have peace!

Bennie out=)

2008-03-31T05:13:00.000-07:00

THE END of DAYS?!

Recently...

There is this video depicting doom for all of us by 2012..
Yes Doom!
The 4 horsemen of Apocalypse is upon us!
OMG seriously

There are quite some convincing claims in the videos
Where there is examples of the Quran, mayan calanders, chinese prophecies and all kinds of stuff
indicating the judgment day that will inflicte us all

Its a scary prospect..lets just all hope its not true

But if it happens to be a real thing
Den wad wud you do to spend dat final hours?
Me-Im gonna tell all the people i love that i love them
Im gonna journey to africa or the middle east and help people there
But den again when the end is nigh, this doesnt seem to have much significance

Aniwae even if the doomsday thingy is a hoax
We humans will destroy ourselves eventually..such is our fate
Sad but true

So in the end we shud all leave life as normal=)

Bennie out=)

2008-03-29T02:27:00.000-07:00

Happy Bdae to Jonathan!And me =)

His is like the easiest to remember the bdae cus its the same date as mine haha=)

And a Big THANK YOU to EVERYONE who made my bdae a nice 1!
Too bad i was sick or else i wud have enjoyed it more!

I loved the battery present! Monster hunter club ftw!

Oh ya the lollipop was really cute haha
Everyone seems fascinated with it*_*
The poor lollipop travelled for like half the audi before it appeared back=(

And thanks you for the cards and the cake which i haven eaten sadly cus im still recovering from sickness

And thank you too all who sms mi=) or tagged!
Or shake my hand and congratulate me haha

Oh ya you noe what wud be the greatest present i can have?
You guys comin to guitar concert!
Its only 6 dollars!
25th april!
Aj Audi=.=

And my blog song is what we are gonna play
Dun you think dat song is very nice and beautiful?

Bennie out=)))

2008-03-23T04:52:00.000-07:00

Was feeling restless...
With all these homework physics CT comin up
I need to unwind so i went to google about ajc
LOL look what i came out with

"the school is so small that it's a miracle to find a place to have food. moreover, the food is so damn disgusting. the female vendors (mainly western food and cai fan) are so sexist. girls have a super small portion while guys have a bigger one. and teachers haf mountain proportions."Quoted from Sg forums,starmoonsun

Epic Win?!=)

Aniwae its pretty hot there with ppl defending AJ(WTH?)And shooting AJ
Some of the defense is actually quite sensible
But still there is something fundamentally wrong with the school
But who cares when the frens u make there are great?
For me i just treat the school as another meeting or gathering place
If the school wants to rot then its their own prob
Cus im gonna be out of here!

bennie out=)

2008-03-20T23:44:00.000-07:00

It seems that alot of things are happening on the 27th..
Its a Thursday and is no way special but why is everyone releasing their stuff on that day?O.o
For a start, i tink a couple of movies are comin out including shutter
Arghs im adverse to horror movies cus my heart will be beating pretty damn hard for the rest of the 2 hrs even though i wud like try to predict when the nasties will pop out
And the thing is that im almost always correct
Horror movies should try to scare you in the moment that u least expected it
Now that will be scary=(

Monster Hunter 2G is comin out on dat day too!
Hooray to team battles with felynes!
Nya~~

haha and of cus dat day is my birthday
Ya abit of shameless advertising here
But the worst thing dat can happen is dat nobody rmbs yr bdae
So ya im gng to remind everyone lols=)

Bennie out-)

2008-03-15T03:18:00.000-07:00

Ah just when i want to change the blog song to "The Rain Song"
Due to 7 days of continuous rain, it has now become extremely sunny and warm for the past 2 days=(
Global WarmingO.O? Maybe

I shud also make a point not to borrow books from the library
Cus everytime i do so, i incur a fine=.=
Im quite lazy haha to return the books~~
Now i have 90 cent fine leh
Tis is so annoying
I hope they dun send mi another letter to force mi to return the fine
And guess what?
I just went to borrow another magazine haha

While on the way home, this auntie ask mi in hokkien to help her carry her stuff
Lucky i understand haha though my hokkien is quite broken
So i just help her carry a short distance ba
Even though we strolled at a very slow pace
I feel really happy somehow haha
Maybe its the thought of doing a good deed
She seems to be struggling with a limp on her leg
I shud have help her longer lar..
I do have the time aniwae..
I regret that i shud have walk her a longer distance
Seeing her limping the distance against the merciless sun made me sad..
=(
So note to self: Do more NEXT time!
If the whole world can just sacrifice a little time to help others
It wud be a greater place

Bennie out=)

2008-03-10T20:38:00.000-07:00

The hour of peace and serenity has passed
And the gloomy and dark clouds has come forth again

The spectre is back from his camp=.=
And the sad thing is that i didnt make full use of the time when he was MIA
I have guitar in the morning on sat den i wasted my entire day on a trip to T3
Sunday i have guild outing foloed by a trip to the IT fair(which i bought a 9.90 keyboard!)
Todays he back..
Shit..
Now he talking loudly over the phone with his half-baked frens
Why cant he speak softly ZZZ
Its like he thinks that the whole world wants to noe whats he saying
Dumb
And plus he keeps spitting out vulgarities as if u earn a dollar for every word said
And he insults his frens and saying lame and useless stuff
ZZZ What a loser..
Who wants to chat with someone who scolds u vulgarities?
Well if you're stoopid and retarded enough to think that someone like the spectre is a good fren=.=
LAme lame
I think i will just do hw to drown my sorrows LOL

bennie out=)

2008-03-08T06:44:00.000-08:00

Okie i was in T3 to celebrate my accomplishment of getting Grade 'D' for chinese lol
The bus trip was longer than i thought it was 1 long hour of torture
I hate long bus rides..

Den while wondering the beautiful and enchanting halls of T3 my mum told mi dat i shud be a pilot next time
Well it has good salary and i get to visit alot of countries and stuff which is really cool and stuff
But then it dawned on me dat im going to be flying here and there
Not staying in a place long enough always on the move
My life is never steady in this case and full of changes
Though it mite actually sound exciting
But somehow i feel such a life is quite empty
It almost feels you do not have time to pursue recreation and relationships or simply to appreciate slow moving pace of life

Im afraid that if im ever am a pilot
Den by the time i realised i shud settle down, half of my life would already pass mi by..
Which leads me to a frightening thought
Life is indeed short
According to econs, we have infinite desires
And i realised i can never fulfill everything
There might be like 70 years ahead of me
But i realized i never properly sit down and think of how life will be
How to make use of all the time while im on earth

While i sat on the bus i was scared that there might be a suicide bomber on it
And my life wud just ended like dat
Den ultimately, i came to the conclusion i must have been afraid of death
Afraid that it will carry me away be4 im done

Sometimes i admire politicians in tension field zones
Everytime they poke their head out for a rally
There is a good chance that they mite be killed
And yet they still continued
Bhutto is one of this example

Maybe thats why people think that there is a afterlife
They are just not convinced that they will just fade away and die physically and spiritually

Haiz maybe that is the price we pay for the ability to think

For now, i will just party away my holiday =)

Bennie out=)

2008-03-05T04:50:00.000-08:00

Have not been blogging for a long time...=(*Deja Vu i tink i must have typed this line for alot of times already...

School starting to accelerate it's pace
Lectures are taught faster and faster and im really barely keeping up
And thats not even considering last year topic which i stilll haven revise..
Arghs we still have guitar and my own fatigue to fight off..
This year is going to be 1 of the most testing year

My frens and I took part in the AJ Dota competition
And even though we lost and felt sore and stuff
I think we all came away with something
We are all very happy=)
For me it also taught me that we shud never be indecisive
If you want to attack attack.
If you want to retreat, retreat
Don't sit on the freaking fence

Results comin out this friday..
Hope i dun have to mdm han face ever again=)

Bennie out=)

2008-02-25T13:36:00.000-08:00

Alot of things happened!But the thing is that i rmbed no more than 90% lols..
Aniwae again im blogging at this ungodly hour 5.30am when i shud be sleeping
A few hours ago upon returning from SL, i laid on my bed and i feel asleep-.-
Forgetting that tmr(or today) is the maths common test!
OMG
I have been a victim of the bed for quite alot of times
Sometimes i slept the whole night thru and wake up to the horror dat i didnt do any hw
Or something make mi wake up in the middle of the night and im able to do my hw
This night is one of the latter thankfully
So i managed to do a quick revision of the topics
Den i went to play maple
And i gt KILLED becus i was too happy picking up the loots=(
T.T
Lesson of the night:Always stock up yr hp pots FULL
7%!!! dats 30 mins of work!
Dats y i immediately quit and blog

I gt 4x100m DOTA comp, and maths test today..
Wish me luckxD

2008-02-16T00:54:00.000-08:00

T.T I really hate valentine day=(
Aniwae i wish to thank everyone who gave mi chocolate, sweets and cards=)
Thank you all!
It made my V-Day less miserable
Though ppl like yiyao manage to make it a miserable day=(

Oh and some of V-day sweets went missing after my grandma open them up and put it in a bowl
As my grandma says"If its not a human who did it, den it must be a ghost"
But there is no ghost!
So obviously there is no prizes for guessing who stole my V-day stuff
What a loser=.=
Steal my stuff
Go die~~

And why on earth is everyone falling in love?
Maybe its the V-Day syndrome or something
Jees*Angry
Haiz very soon i will be the only unattached person in dat class
=(

And guitar is going to step up its engine by introducing extra training sessions!
Woots im so going to be knocked out..

Bennie out=)

And Happy V-Day for the fortunate=)

2008-02-06T20:45:00.000-08:00

********HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!*******

This precious 200th post will be updated as soon as i recieve the photos ba=)

Unfortunately i haven recieve the guitar photos yet cus sophie went offline just as i went online=(
1st News

We finally performed at the CNY concert after 2 weeks of extreme training
Everydae(or nearly) we stayed back til 7pm to practice
It was tough but everyone got to noe each other better
In particularly i knew everyone much better=)
So despite the not so amazing performance IMO
The thing is that we have managed to gain frenship
Somehow guitar wasnt really mundane when we did our practice together
It was fun and enjoyable
For mi, i was staged-fright
Seeing such a massive audience,i completely forgot about my notes to play
It was so scary so i just focused on terry ba
But it is a good experience and next tym i will be better equipped=)
Here are some photos we took

*Will come when sophie sends mi the photo haha

2nd NEWS
Directly after the guitar performance, i had to rush for our og outing
held by the *ahem capable shona
Eng Sen was stuck in SA and he attempt to climb over the fence to no avail
Oh ya and our great organizer has no idea where to go!
LOL so in the end we just went to the station board thingy and picked chinatown
Apparently rachel says that there is a "Funny Street" there
Plus its CNY so we shud go to chinatown lol
But man the sun is so freaking hot there
The moment i step out im sweating and it doesnt help dat im carrying my guitar
Along the way we discovered and did stuff that make the trip quite fun after all=)
First we went inside an hindu temple(LOL)
But it was really rip off lar-you have to pay like $3 just to be allowed to take photos
On our way out, we met some japanese tourists
Damn i must really learn Japanese 1 day
Okie den we move onto the funny street
It was really just a street of ppl selling tidbits and stuff
But it was quite amusing
There was like this person saying(translated directly from dialect or chinese)
"Selling Plastic BAg for $3!"
Den this rival stall person will like retort
"we dun sell plastics bag..den promote their own stuff lines"
I still like the stall rappers incrediblely funny
They wud just rap abt their products on the microphone lols
"Squeeze full fullx10..5 dollar x 100"
Yes one guy said that 5 dollar thing for like so much times that we can still hear it from 30m away
And den we saw this little quarrel between a shopper and the seller
The seller looks scary like a gangster lor
Den eng sen showed up after SA decided to dismiss him
He went to Mac to buy cheeseburger and den we sat down in some ulu shopping centre
Jasmine decided to take out her er-hu for a spin and yan hao took my guitar
We all started playing while curious passer-bys look at us
Den this Caucasian guy came and asked
"Are you guys music students?"
LOL
"You guys can make some money busking"
HAHA
"happy Chinese NEW YEAR!"
That is really epic haha

To prevent any more of this unprecedented incidents from occuring
we kept a low profile after dat ba
Den we all went home haha=)

Here r some pics of "funny Street"

1st DAY of cny

3rd Event

We went to my Great grandma house to visit ba
To give you an idea how pathetic the situation was
This is a photo i took

Ya its is dat quiet
Jees where the CNY spirit?!
And plus it doesnt help the fact that my aunt still harbors some form of resentment towards me
Seriously i dun noe why but she doesnt like me
What ever i dun give a damn about her animore=.=
I gt a grand total of 3 hong baos!
Hooray
IT just gets worse and worse every year

We went home early dat day..haiz

2rd Day of CNY

I went to Eng Sen house for another og gathering haha!
But man it is very very far
I have to 1st take to amk
Alight and take the N-S line
All the Way to CCK
And den Switch to LRT and take all the way to Fajar station
Whew
I wonder how eng sen cope with having to go AJ everydae with dat routine
Must have been terrible

Den we went to his house to play NINTENDO WII!
I heard it was quite retarded since there are like countless reports of ppl whacking themselves on the head with the controller lol
But it was really quite fun!
Man his nephew rocks so hard at bowling

LOL look at shone playing boxing=)

And talking abt boxing, ming hui is so good at it.
Her hands are like machine guns or sth and they DUN stop punching
We are all victims of her imbaness
It was only when i decided to cheat dat i manage to beat her haha

Yay hooray Og photo!And us playing bridge yay!

Reached home at 12!And poor shona probably reach home at 1 or later haha=)

3rd day of CNY

Something really bad happened today...
I lost one of the final artifacts blog gal gave me...
My grandma just took it w.o my permission and cut it
becus she tinks its dirty
But to me it was not dirty
Imagine how distraught i was when i saw the mangled present
I didnt scold anyone, i was just really upset
Guess im slowly losing everything that links to her
My grandma say nvm i can buy give you a new 1
So?
It isnt the tangible aspect of the present but it is
The soul in it that makes it special
No matter how expensive the replacement is
It Can NEVER NEVER replace the original..
I dun tink my grandma understand at all..
So becus of this, i decided to give guitar outing a skip
Dun wanna dampen everyone mood=(

Hope tmr wud be a great day=/

2008-01-26T20:43:00.000-08:00

So sunday has become the official do my homework day
And its going quite well but the problem is...
All the tutorials are so FREAKING hard!
I tried CoE and im already dead by the 5th q
Vectors?Lets not even start on dat even though i struggled to complete lesson 1
Wad other hw are there?
God i cant rmb
And there is history essay=/
Writing essays become a drag after a while
You just get this feeling you're writing crap by the time you wrote 1 page of it
Its that sinking feeling
And it saps ur motivation real hard
I wish i was smarter den i can just bulldoze my way thru tutorials instead of being owned and pwned everywhere
And im now enlisted into maths remedial hooray=/

Homework actually aint bad but it the sheer hardness of it dat makes you want to give up
And the lecture notes a'int useful(except maclaurin which is strangely well-explained*They must have copied it from some other jc)

On friday, i was treated to a unsettling truth
I finally know The BIG SECRET
And it isnt nice
No wonder they say its for my own good dat i do not know abt THE BIG SECRET
Becus i wish i haven knew

A melnyx
A melnyx
A melnyx for my kingdom( if you played MHF you will noe what it means)

This year is gonna be filled with drama the way i see it esp when a levels creep closer and closer...

Bennie out=)

2008-01-19T04:14:00.000-08:00

Firstly...

Happy (Belated)Bdae To
Ming Hui!
May the winds grant you a smooth sailing journey for this year=)

Secondly...
The next few weeks is going to be quite hellish cause guitar prac is on every single day except for sundayO.o
OMG..still have to perform in front of school?= panic
Arghs sometimes i wish i never signed up lols...
Friday gym session still cause my arms to ache like nothing in the world..
Hope to see some results durin next pe haha

Thirdly...

I have decided to brand my neighbourhood as the most undesirable place to live after this afternoon incident
I was just 1 second away from being whacked on the head by a free falling rice box
Ya you are probably thinking " lol rice box? HAHA wun kill 1"
I wun be so sure lei
When it hit the ground, the rice box landed with such a huge blast
And den a subsequent rain of unidentifiable liquid came raining down
I was quite shaken..
I can just imagine the headlines

Boy Killed By Rice Box

Man everyone wud just laughed their ass off
Other crappy things around my home includes:
Racial showdowns(Yes i had witnessed the bangala vs chinese just outside my house)
Screamings in the night(Drunkard ppl? Crazy ass teens? Mostly they are female-sounding..i hope its not a ghost or sth...)
Unruly bikers(ZZZ they shout in the middle of the night as if the whole world is oblivious to them)
Near-Car Accidents(A taxi just rammed into the divider hours ago...not to mention other near crashes)
Dog shit..

Oh well..

Lastly...
Im inviting everyone who is interested to come to my house during CNY!
Ya just come and get hong bao ba
haha=)
Pls come!

Bennie out=)

2008-01-11T19:14:00.000-08:00

My arms are aching like mad!
Its a result of a torturous pe session reminiscent of what we do in the past
60 push ups!
Den we went to gym yst and my arms is now like a slab of concrete or sth..
Takes quite an effort to lift my poor arms~~
But it is definitely all worth it!
My 2.4 km is still very much doubtful since my stamina practically suck

Oh ya while returning home to kovan,
The spectre step on a pile of vomit..
I wanted to laugh so hard but i kept quiet haha

Last few days has been all nighters..with gp hw being the main culprit..
I also had so many guitar lesson the my skill is actually improving..which is a good thing
But im always so tired at the end of the day=(
however when you are so tired and you lay down to sleep..
It is the most amazing feeling ever!

Another random piece of info..
I feel pity for the crabs stuck in the coffee shops..
They are just left to die until some body gives them a 'merciful' death by a chopper..
Poor things~~

2008-01-08T07:19:00.000-08:00

Arghs i just woke up from a short nap...at 11 pm...
Who's fault? That moron in my house.=.=
Today was supposed to be a fine day because its gng to be my 1st day when i can go home quite early..
Was gonna finish up GP homework.
I have all the research in my com, just waiting to be printed
And when i got home., that moron is like hoarding the com
Seriously its not like he is doing any constructive work..just watching anime over over again and listening to crap music
And he has been doing this for all of school days..i can't even freaking use.
Dat Asshole=.=
If he finished using, he will just plant his ass right in front of the com
The purpose obviously to prevent me from using.
He is addicted..cus he doesnt go to sleep when i use the com.
It is as if he thinks he can supervise me and this restricts me
ZZZ

Next time this happens,
I drag him right out of the seat..
No more Mr Nice guy=(

Bennie out=)

Jus realised that this will be the 196th post!

2008-01-05T22:01:00.001-08:00

I really regretted what i told char
I can't wait for school!
7 hrs ltr after i said that, i wish i didnt...
Finally i figured out what i hate about school
Something that i hav obviously took for granted during the holidays
It is a freaking good night sleep!!!
I had to literally drag myself out of bed
And it was raining and it was so so cooling...
I had to remind myself that school has REOPENED

Dang and the rain cause me to catch a terrible flu
And my next 3 days in school was most miserable=(

And there is still the considerable amt of hw building up
And my hunter is still lvl 65!!

I look forward to days of sleepless nights and sleepy lectures LOL
I have already slept in a lecture le haha

Bennie out=)

2007-12-31T07:40:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year!!!

Some pictures i took from new year celebration haha
A picture tells a 1000 words!!

haha let 2008 be a good year!

Bennie out=)

P.S ya i noe my fireworks are lousy=.= T.T i tried my best haha